Do you really
Understand?
i suppose not
If you do i really
Can't Tell
Help me
Understand
I'm so confused
i need understanding
this isn't working out
i cant help myself
oh
But you don't understand me?
well
let me help you
every f**
Day
i wake to go to
a place
where people
******* kids
act like *******
all the ******* time
not towards me of course
but towards people
who are defenseless
helpless
against someone
who happens
to be bigger
but little do they
know
that same person
has a much worse life
then them
i need you to
understand
understand why
I'm the way
I am
But hey
you don't want to do that
do you
every **** day
people don't
understand
why I'm angry
dead on the inside
and you still don't understand
maybe because most
people
in the world
are selfish
lying
conniving
******!!!
Oh
but I'm the
Crazy one?
please.
let me help you
Understand
Understand why
I am
the way
I am.
Understand this
Understand me
understand why I'm angry
understand my emotion
i just
need you
TO UNDERSTAND.

why
why does it exist
temptation
thats one thing that i never understand
maybe its just me
because when i look at
temptation
its almost as if people draw
it
toward them
not the other way around
then again what do i know
i am only 15
what could i possibly know about
temptation
or maybe its the
"fact"
that most people believe
that us
black
people are just the main reason that
temptation
exist. Like seriously
cause this makes no sense
but temptation
temptation i realize
come from deep within
temptation is drawn form a very
dark and cold place
within someone
but to me
temptation is
pretty *******
then again
like i said
what could a 15 yr old
know about
the power of temptation

Anger                                  
Something i
Feel
Everyday
People anger me
All this hatred
Built up
Inside of me
I can't take this
Anymore
Every time i turn
Around there's always
Gonna be
Anger
Anger is something i feel
When i see a
Young Black Man
Get shot down
Over minor issues
When i see the
Young Black Man
Selling drugs and
Smoking dope
Anger
Something i feel
when I'm scolded
For no reason
Cussed out and cussed at
Punched
Slapped
For misdemeanor
BS
Talked crazy to
Over something small
Even when i do
Something good
I guess I
Must be cursed
I mind my business
I get yelled at
I take care of my
Business
I get threatened
I must be cursed
Cause still
I
FEEL
ANGER.

Back Again
back into the flow of things
it feels good having this platform
i'm sorta living better
poetry is i guess
my escape
from life in general
why life  
because sometimes
life can be a
pain
a very otherworldly pain
otherworldly meaning well...
pretty much having to
deal with people
that you really don't want to
but you do anyway
again more awesome
fantatsic
amazing
unbelievably incredible
*******
you see the thing is
no one really gives
a **** about anyone
but hey
they some how find
a way
to bounce back
to come back again
"which i never understood
because i hardly understand
anything
that goes on in the world
because out world is pretty ******."
thats the sarcasm talking.
i would say thats the
***** talking but
i dont drink
im not a ******* idiot
obviously
most likely because
i  wouldn't know how to
come back again
after drinking so much
wine
whiskey
and lets not forget
a little bit of some other alchohol
that i believe is foreign to me
but anyway back to the
subject
at hand
coming back again is hard for most of us
coming back is especially difficult for
us black people
why?
because every time i look at the
******* news we are
all killing
each other
or
the police tries to ****
us off
o
n
e
b
y
o
o
n
e
mostly because we tend to be
able to come back
from impossible circumstances
but we're
always gonna come back
bigger
stronger
and in Usain Bolt's case
faster
but we will always and forever
be the comeback kingz.

For the longest time
I've felt this world to be
Fiction
Everyone not being true to themselves
Being who they really want to be
Who they
Desire
To be
They usually just go with the flow
And don't think twice
I have always had this
Gut feeling
That one day world would become
Emotionless
Numb to the pain
The Suffering
Not be able feel what's
Real
No one knows their true nature
Because of society's messed up
Double standards
Is life really all about
***?
Drugs?
Wealth and Women?
Living lavish lifestyles?
No. Not at all
But it'll be too late before
People
Realize that most of everything
They See in life
Is always and Forever
FICTION.