start refresh restore renew
each end gives way to many new
feel the life and let it flow
nor is it that or this, we know
i dont intend to post pretend
i write what voice cannot mend
this is me, we are as i am
all is all that i am that i am
       as  above and so...............   the end

this could be the day but if not then that's ok
i always plan to give my all if i stand or if i fall
i know that i am not the best i never fail to take the test
i believe in you will you believe in me
the cost is low it might be free
if there is one thing that i know for sure
i need some hope so that i may endure
i can hang in i can hold on
poetry has made me strong
yesterday has been a teacher
poverty has been the feature
tomorrow is  a brand new day
it is not there so we don't know
so when its here i will go
and if its time then it will show
and all the days i lived in strife
will be just memories but still my life

fortified so i can hide few have dared to come inside
the walls are tall built with pain home of the criminally insane
u laugh out loud inside i cry they push me off but i still fly
you cant have slaughter without laughter this is no mistake
you can tell me god repells me  but save the wooden steak
have you ever met vegan that only eats the meat
have you ever found attractive wet and stinky feet
to each and all their own  but remember whos alone
the ones who have been cast away or ran away from home
growing number climbing of those we ostracized
they say that they are doing fine but if you look into the eyes
u see the darkness of survival the vaulted shame of lies
you give them your concern but hope they will go soon
they know their most unwanted despite you offering a room
sometimes we live in such a way there is no going back
sometimes you have stood up so much u are happy to lay back
  after all your evil and the rain is said to pass
you may have stood for what was right but trauma don't heal fast
if you live so long in darkness it hurts to see the light
and although the sun comes and goes forever is the night
standing up for freedom left out in the cold
the system that enables systematic pain
just because i don't respond  your action will remain
when you find a way to play then they change the game
know that i built myself on failure resiliency through pain
you may not like resistance but you will not forget my name
im getting sick of being used or doing what im told
the days will come upon you resistant wont get cold
in a  moment i am focused the moment i am king
ive seen it all and dance in flames so what you have to bring

Let me go turn me down
go *******
       your just a clown
Your the source of the problem your employed to effect
         go *******
don't want your check
Act like you give a **** but I don't even care deny every try as if u care set me up for failure but I'm already there

             So go *******
while i **** on
Thank god for drugs or I'd be
     bbb gone
You people make me feel insane  like why **** do I play this game of I can't win and you don't try it makes  no sense I'll just get high at least then I can float away and live my **** some other day since it won't go I can't stay so up in smoke I go away if you look real close from every way you just may   find there no ***** forgiven today

words ignite fire the flames burn to the ground
my words are desire my spells cast around
deceptivly inviting they all will follow me
creatively enticing as they wait in captively
word is then delivered with form from which we fight
always reassessing if they will or they might
fall to the unknown and  intention never shown
I take the rest from here your add a Lil fear
imperfectly unappeased I turn into the disease
you only give your sense to fake self-confidence
the maybe is the might that  "want to" cannot fight
even out for yourself  keel over from good health
calling on creation is to save you from the pain
discomfort shapes experience as your mindfully insane
shifty shady maybe I am without a doubt
you never need to know why  n who or what about
knowing is the burden when you really don't know ****
the factoid is the cherry on the cake that you don't get
confuse them as i simplify, you live a lie with no regret

to those that I love and question me still
I know that I can and probably will
for those who don't know me but act like they do
I don't run so instead I draw circles around you
you hate me you need me and now I am gone
you may have moved forward I'm afraid to move on
I keep hoping that one day you figure it out
I become hopeless the symptom of doubt
the story of life is told to no end
I don't need happy  endings I just need a friend
I guess there is no one to enjoy and share time
I give my best to the past, but this moment is mine

if someday someone somewhere has something
I see that and say to them this one thing
all that it is, is not all that we are
nowhere to go  if you never dream far
you don't know who you were
if you don't know where you are
there is power in presence to find it in yourself
perceptively crippled to define what we call self