Baby girl, I'm here for you.
Baby girl, I'm here to help.

If you have problems, don't hesitate to come to me. My arms are open wide, my ears wide open.
I will be there for you whenever I can, if only you'd accept that you can't do it alone, and accept help from this miserable man.

You, you are the sunshine of my dark days.
You, you are what keeps me warm on a cold winter's night.
You, you are the tissues that wipe away my tears.
You, you are the bandaids that stop the bleeding.
You, you are the sparkle I see during brief moments of happiness.
You, you are everything I need.

Unfortunately, you are just a dream...

Once again...once again I have this feeling of being a nobody...
Once again... once again I'm just a slice of thin air, a waste of space...
Once again...once again I feel useless, worthless and meaningless...
I just want to be loved, is that so hard?!
I just wanted to be loved and taken for who I am, once again....

This moment has come again, this moment of complete emptiness.
First my head was full of thoughts and ideas and inspiration, and now..... everything's disappeared, ****** away in a vacuum cleaner.

This moment has come again, this moment in which my life is an empty void, a dark hole.

Why? Why can't I have someone in my life to fill the void?

What have I done to deserve this?

Please...make it stop....

It was the 16th of October 2014, I was at a friend's house, well, guy I know from school, and we were drinking. It was around that day that negativity came to the doorstep and rang the doorbel and me foolish enough to open the door. We were drinking, I drank some more, we were laughing, and then.....

Total blackout....

I woke up in the hospital the next morning and I got word that I was a lucky guy.... if the ambulance came a minute later....let's say I wouldn't be here sharing my writings with you....

I was never a believer, but since that day I'm convinced that someone gave me a second chance.....

One of the first hot daye this summer. People enjoying the beautiful weather. Children playing in the streets. People walking around in a happy mood and with smiles on their. Yet, there I am. I don't enjoy the nice weather. I feel cold and I'm wrapped in a blanket of sadness and loneliness, with a few patches of despair. In my head, it's just another rainy day. If only someone would take the time to bring some sunshine into my day...

Funny how writing can have more meaning than speech.
Funny how a bit of ink on a paper can have more effect than words spoken out by yourself.
Funny how a pen is able to say every single word your mouth can't.
Funny how a bit of paper with some words can make people interested in you when people couldn't care less about you by words.
Funny how this world can become a different place by writing.
Funny...