Oh the things that we could do
If only youd give me an item or two.
Start out slow then jump the speed,
When i cut them up with a wacker thats made fir weeds
Oh the things that we would feel,
From the beating if hands to the stomp of our heels
Tonight we dine in hell, we must,
For that is what for our blood lusts
We are one and we are two,
But you dont understand the gravity do you?
This is not Vergil im telling you now,
My real name is Noah, you know my real name now
See now is the time that it really gets scary,
Cause its only the real one stop your comparing
Weve planned it for years i planned on my parents,
But i guess i never had the *****, it just comes with habit
But the other disagreed said he only wanted the girls,
But the one you seem most, his blood began to curddle
Ive been homicidal, suicidal since year 6,
I smoked, cut, and now tried **** just for a fix
Writings my passion though thats much is true,
Done with my ditty, sorry if i bothered any of you
Wanna cut? thats wrong, trust me i would know,
Almost lost to much to live one year in the snow
Of course it wasnt me but someone else,
I wont go to that story cause youll be sad in yourselves
The last time a cop taught a class i was in, he asked along the lines if "anyone pointed a knife at you?" Hmmm?
Ive had it a few times, one time too close,
Not all of scars on my body are self inflicted yaknow,
Nope not that time you see,
Someone else held the blade and dragged it over me
Thats the time they took my virginity again by force,
But that was only time 1 before,
Was it assisted suicide you ask?
I was too scared to ask for help in the past,
No not assisted i tell you that for sure,
Cause im a survival of teenage torture
Survivor not survival, i jumble my words,
But now you see why my fists are now curled,
Ah alas ive nothing to say,
Ive no more to tell, at least no more today

so, been a long time since i been here.
been a long time since i faked
               Escape,
been a long while since I've had a good time.
cause I'm still scraping the bottom of every line.
you see, there is a few similarities,
between people and fruit, mostly cherries,
you see no matter what you do,
they can get battered, scarred, and bruised,
and nobody wants them,
so they just toss them,
but they could be as sweet as can be,
be the sweetest you ever meet,
but another thing, those cherries, scarred and bruised,
peoples too,
cut them all you want it seems,
they never seem to stop...
                     Bleeding.
they all are like us, like me.
they don't. stop. whenever. they. bleed.

July 21st, the last time I did a poem.
      I'm losing my creative flow,
  I'm losin what I would call.      
                         Home....
               I'm dying
         In my locked cell
   Behind,            Closed doors.
              There is no escape.
        And.                           You find yourself wonder
      Is.    There.         Life.        For.      Me.      On.    
         This planet
         Or.             The next
         I run my own race
                              And I come in last against myself.
So riddle me this?
                          Should I move the knife away
                  From my neck.
              Or...             Should I drag in slowly across
             My.             Throat.
                       You decide.
       Cause I'm done helpin myself.
                                    Cause I always come...

                In.        Last.        Place.

For those of you,
Who feel.
      Defeated, beaten, bested, cheated,
And back stabbed.
Those who can't
          Or refuse
To stand
    For you.      Are those.    Very few.    Who will
Die for nothing
            If you don't stand
   For.                 Something
  You.      Might as well put your head
On a platter
          With a side.        Of bread and butter.
But!
      For those who have still fight left but can't get up
              I reach to you, embrace you,
With.       The power.        I never had.
      These
           May.        Seem as words
But.                                         There is a truth.
That.              I will help you
                      As.                 Much.            
      As.         I.       Can.      Before.    
          My last breath...
Before....


                                                           I die...

Well there is no scheme it seems
To me
To be so plainly abstract
                As this
      But I put words apon a page
        And now I feel it
The bliss of knowing
            The bliss of feelings
                     The darkness of knowing this could be
     Your.        Last.           Breath.  
But I'm still here
        You still hold me in your heart
   You are my candle in the storm
                 And together we embrace and consume
   The darkness we fear so much

You are the apple to my pie,
the straw to my strawberry,
the joint to my high,
and the one I want to marry.

As I lay my head to sleep,
I pray The Lord my soul to keep,
but if I die before I wake,
I pray The Lord my soul to take,
But if I don't go to sleep,
I pray that I can find my peace,
if I do but wake again,
I pray that we will meet as more than friends.

Another day comes, Another day goes,
I love you so much, I don't care who knows,
I'll scream it from the mountain tops,
I'll scream it and I will not stop,
I'll let them know,
I'll let it show,
I don't care what happens, as long as your mine,
I'll keep up my game until you are in time.
I love you, want you,
Can't live without you,
I can't stand the time apart when we can't talk,
But it seems like it'll happen, but lets go on a walk,
We will see what we can see,
Be what we want to be,
Cause in my mind, my dreams, my heart, my everything,
You still and forever belong to me.

So many sleepless nights,
so many nights I had to cry myself to sleep,
so many **** times,
that I wish I could hear you say that you love me,
So many things,
So many places,
I put on my trinkets and things,
Every day's a new face,

And It always seems to be for naught,
But you are back, so I won't rot,
In my hell, this cage I'm in,
But now I can keep calm the beast within.

I can't seem to get out of hear,
I just want to disappear,
Come straight for you,
So that you can be happy too.
I'll make a deal with the devil,
Overturn all this rubble,
That covers me,
As you can plainly see,
It gets in the way I me getting to you,
And still I will somehow get through,
I'll drive to you,
Fly to you,
Do anything to show my love t you,
Is nothing but absolutely true,
Cause I love you always and I feel it deep,
I even love the way you squeak,
It's amusing and cute,
But it's better because its you,
An I don't care what they say,
I am yours forever baby.

I want to cry,
As time passes by,
Waiting for the time,
When to you I can fly,
I will hold on hope,
But hope is almost dead and I begin to choke,
I'll come for you when I can,
But I don't know what to do till then,
I'll wait my turn at Hell's gate,
An hopefully from this nightmare I can wake,
And find myself next to you,
In our bed, married as two,
Together as one,
Always having fun,
Glad to be alive,
But that's a dream I'm still alright,
With knowing the day will come to pass,
When I can hold to and that embrace can last,
I will never let you go,
And time will say no,
Time will tell me to go away,
But with you I will stay,
That's the future, yeah I know,
But from here we continue to watch our relationship grow.

Why is it that I smile every time I talk to you,
My heart flutters faster than a jet,
And the only thing I can think if,
Is how I want you to be here in my bed,
No ***, not yet,
But holding you instead,
Just sitting here, awaiting your que,
To finally get up and get dressed,
Cause I want us to be together forever,
No cheesy lines,
I'll hurt you NEVER, but the thing I want to to know the most,
Is I love you, and nobody can boast,
Cause they think things, see things,
hear, touch and smell things,
but they can't think of what is going through my mind,
But please stay tonight, at least on last time.
I know that this poem has to rhyme,
But at least it is you and me...
In time

I love you so much the stars don't look so far away,
I love you so much I wish I could be with you,
Hand in hand,
Nothing but us,
But I want you to know its not just looks,
But what I feel about you and how you act,
That has cause me to be this way.
So for you I say this one last line to you to end my poem without a rhyme scheme,
But it is one thing, I love you

More a beast than a man,
both these titles go hand in hand.
Though i look like a boy,
i know i cant play coy,
i am more than a human,
i am not just a person,
i am more of a deadly night creature,
That's just one of my GOOD features

I know, i cant write that well,
But iwrite what comes from my heart, my hell, MY heaven.
I dont care how it sounds,
As long as it comes from my heart.
It doesnt really hae to be from my heart, but from my soul.
The home is where the heart is?
No its not. The home is where ur comfortable and confident in what you do.
So why am i here? Im uncomfortable in my own head,
And im not very confident yet i get up here again and again.
How does this pass from one challenge to the next?
It doesnt really matter i suppose,
As ling as i know where its from for me personally.
It doesnt really seem as though u see what i am doing to u.
Im hypnotizing u with every word, and every sylable.
And i still cant seem to tell whether its workin or not.
But i guess that just happens sometimes.
U have a dream and it gets lost in the swirling torment we put ouselves in.
Yet still we try to escape ourselves.
But we should all know that we have limited time to grab this offer.
To finally push it all away.
Invincible for at least a moment,
And ten it slips away as we crawl to our corner of the board.
And still we dont notice,
We are pawns, we cant push past our own rules to fight the queens and kings.
But we try. So at least we know now that we are strong enough to hold our own against the winds of change.
So now we have the knowledge, or power, to finally grasp our hearts, and tear them out,
We can hold it for all to see as we tell them,
'Guess what? I AM heartless NOW!'

Yes, i understan that i need help,
But yet im still screaming from airless lungs,
Through lifeless lips,
And eyes glazed over,
And now it seems the final breath has come and gone,
Millenia has already gone since then,
Try to pick up my peices and put it together,
But still you cant seem to understand the problem.
Its not even you, its my own emotions and pain,
And thoughts and things that run past me,
So fast i cant even grasp it,
But i see the shadows of the people,
The shades of colors are swirlin around me,
Spinning faster than a haywire carrosel,
But it stops, and i fall down dizzy and sick,
Yet im surfacing with the heratics surrounding me,
But i still cant understand where they came from!
Yet still. I have it in my hands,
One hand has a pen,
One hand has a knife,
Ive already written a story with one,
And it turned out well.
Even became a part o my life.
But it has lost its savory taste, smell, and feeling.
So now lets try writing it in ink this time.

Im hearing it all,
Yet still im sitting here thinking,
'Hah! Life? What are you to take mine?!'
But still it plays in my mind how the rusty bridge i cross to get from on day to the next,
Is starting to crumble as slowly and painfully as my mind is breaking.
It does seem to mean that im going insane,
Deing what i want to try to get through a day of my life.
Its not as it seems to me to be that which was mine,
But now its not, it is someone elses, or someTHING elses.
It has no name or shape, and yet it seems to take away from me minamaly.
It chars my soul with te fires of hell,
Yet it gives me the cooling water of the streams to cool me.
It still seems to take,
Though it still does sooth.
It does appear as though im done, but i have no concept of time here i my life,
Im snapping back to take life head on,
Life pushes me to the edge yet i grab it by its gruesomely ugly and spiked tail,
To drag it with me into the spiraling depths of my own despair.

Is it raining, or is this a storm,
Is it a few bees, or is it a swarm,
Look at the world, look at the room,
See the lightning, hear the boom,
Take what you have take it away,
Give some more than before today,
You got a family here, a family there,
We are all here for the PWDB fair.

Im not washing the slate clean,
But i not being mean,
This war we're fighting,
Its not just writeing,
Its music, its emotion,
So if ur gonna be sick, be sick of societies poison,


Hey, oh, tell them turn it up till they cant no more,
We got the party, whos it for?
Its for all of you who come to see us,
Its for none of those from outside the sequence,
Its for the people that support us on the way,
Its for the ones who help us anyway,
We are all aliens, cause we are not of this world,
We are of the musical, so common and hit the floor,

Im not washing the slate clean,
But i not being mean,
This war we're fighting,
Its not just writeing,
Its music, its emotion,
So if ur gonna be sick, be sick of the poison,

The energy is rising in the room,
You cant deny the sound of whom,
The force of the sound, the heat of the beat,
Its more than the sound of thunder or the lightning heat,
We have our own, you have yours,
We gonna keep goin till it poors,
When it poors, we keep going,
So that everyone knows what we are showing,
We are showing the love of the sound,
For those people who cant stand up, but are proud,
For the weak who here can all stand tall,
While the strong run for cover before the fall.
So sing for the weak, and sing for the strong,
Sing for the right and sing for the wrong,
Sing for your life, cause you wont run,
Cause we arent done having some fun!

Upon these words I spit,
Cause if you don't you might get stuck in your throat,
My corrupted, deadly ****,
I'm dieing to die,
Itching to scratch,
Tear out my eyes,
Throw me in with the batch,
These corrupt able little *****,
That think that they can handle me,
Better now bow there heads, for its,
The terrible SUICIDE KING,
But yet you see they call me this,
Because otherwise I'm THE NAMELESS,
But still I'm on a bucket list,
Of things to destroy because of my corruptness,
I have no need for your petty things,
These broken hearts that full the pit,
And all of these destroyed dreams,
That help me say I'm over it,
I'm done with this,
I'm done with that,
No I'm ******,
I'm going to snap,
So back away,
You worthless ****,
Cause I must say,
**** all of it!

She is my one and only place for escape,
With her id gladly seal my fate,
She means the world to me,
And that i hope that she sees,
I cant write but the truth in my time of need,
Cause i need to know that she loves me,
Id be the one standing there and holding her,
But she is dancing with another,
I forgive her, yeah im jealous,
Im so sorry but that i must confess,
She is the one that takes my breath away,
And my love for her will never fade,
I keep this not so close to my heart,
and hope it can help keep open that part,
That part of me that is now gone,
But i just hope indeed that she can come,
Come back to me, an my life,
Instead of have me sit in this hell,
If she says no its just as well,
Cause im burning hotter than the color that was in her hair,
And well i guess it fine for me to be fair,
An say that she is open to them all,
But please, i ask of her, save me from my fall.

I'll tell you now I'm nothin without her,
You all know the feeling, you know it's true,
You got that special someone,
That helps you to get through,
You all know you have one love,
One person in this world,
One person that hold you when your afraid,
And warms you when you're cold.

You all know that one someone,
That person that makes you feel invincible,
You all have at least one,
That makes you feel like anything possible,
I speak to one, that one is her,
The one I speak of has a heart that is true,
The one to whom I must say this,
"I'm nothing without you"

If she thinks I'm gonna go astray,
Then listen to this tune,
Play it in your heart, and in your head,
It's true I'm nothing without you,
So what if I get angry and I take it out on you,
I'll kiss you hold you say I feel so bad
And never let you go.
Because I'm that kind of person and don want to make you sad,
I want you by my side,
Always together, and forever,
We will conquers the world with our love,
And we can stand against the weather.

When I look into the mirror,
I look into my eyes,
Is what I see called fear or,
Is it just a disguise?
I'm uncomfortable, while you **** the world,
I'm still misunderstanding what I'm seeing,
I can see your banners unfurled,
And why is it a killer your being?

Your killing the world one but at a time,
The body turns to ash,
As the shell is a helm of lies,
And you still look into the past,
You're done before you started,
As you killed yourself long ago,
But you aren't even a martyr,
You still have millions left to go.

Studs spikes and leather is what I wear,
But I still know what lies beneath,
This a shield I wear to be fair,
Because underneath the lies and things, i am truly weak,
I put on a guise to protect myself,
But still I don't nothing to hold,
As the platform I burn is my shelf,
And I fall in with the rest of the world.

I'm like some crazy Jeckle and Hyde ****,
I go from happy to insane in a second,
I'm never truly happy or sad,
On the inside I'm like the Hatter, I'm ******* Mad,
Hahaha, I am ******* crazy,
I am insane on the inside baby,
I am stuck inside this maze in my mind,
I pace around just to pass the time,
I have only one thing inside my head,
It's that all of you should be dead

I try my damnedest just to get through the day,
But still I stay here and I say,
To myself mostly but sometimes everyone;
'Why are you still here, aren't you done?'
I'm dieing on the inside trying to remember,
What makes me feel as though I'm being dismembered.

We live like a bunch of worms,
Live on the floor of our world,
Feed off the floor to satisfy our hunger,
But what do we do when it comes to summer,
The food comes In and we let it rot,
Just like society and government, the whole **** lot,
We need to get back to what we know is the truth,
So lets all go back, back to the roots.

He was amazing at being a friend,
Would stick by you till the end,
Never let you down,
Could turn your frown upsidedown,
He always had an open hand,
He was the best guy in the land,
Had a nack for bein great,
But his parents sealed his fate,
He had an amazing girl,
She was the best for him in the world,
His parents didnt respect her at all,
And so that was the relationships fall,
So his mother snapped,
And she attacked,
But his girl was done with their ****,
She was so over it,
She wanted to be friends instead,
And to his parents are we all dead.
She bought his sister a 30 dollar cross,
And now they snap and the relationship is lost?
**** his parents i have a suggestion,
Here is my one and only quetion:
Do we care what they think at all?
Or shall we all like them fall?
Should we ignore them? Yes we should,
Lets go back to being what we were: a brotherhood,
Her furry is being the conduit for it,
His parents think they are doing all the right ****,
We can see the hurt in his eyes,
But at least we know he has his pride,
If she would get with him, it would settle down,
Go to one cook out, and be there i his town,
Be in his territory, but dont explode,
I think they should kindly invite her to his abode,
This is crap, and no matter how hard, forgive and forget,
So lets all be friends, and forget all of it.

Well, i am back,
And i gotta new rap,
My dad, i've never seen him cry,
But today has been the first time,
He snapped an said he might be leavin,
Cause my mom, she the one who always pevein,
Tryin to make us to just what she wants,
We probably lost all of our aumbiance,
She makein us mad, and not takin the blame,
She think we gonna be played like a game,
We just the pawns, she is the queen,
But we done, we retaliate, we burst right through the seams,
She doesnt seem to care about our feelings,
She takes everything and makes it into HER dealings,
She thinks she controls how or wht we do,
But we all know, dont test 'you know who'.
Cause imma snap,
Straight to full atack,
Aim to ****,
Or get your fill,
Cause imma cold killer,
Cruel blood spiller,
And this is my plight,
So do u have the sight?
The sight to see,
Just whats in me,
The stuff of legends,
That i can tell you, dont come from the heavens,
Im not from the light, im from the dark,
On an adventure i have embarked,
Dont push me anymore, or i will snap,
Go on, lock the door, before i attack.

Stand tall, and dont fall,
when the world pushes you over te edge,
grab the ledge,
and then crawl,
back up,
back in,
to the world u r ****** in
I Doubt that death is better,
cause i hope you know,
life is what you need to show, show it whos boss,
kick it in the ***,
hit the dirt with its face,
make it eat the grass,
and worship u as its master

Because even though they put me down,
And i always have a frown,
I can pick myself up, and forget ther missdeads,
As long as i can get what this body needs,
Doesnt have enough love though its loved by one,
Its hated by others, and that's no fun,
It always has been true, and now it will end,
I can and will for myself fend.
And i will protect the one that i love,
Cause she is the one who id fight for, without gloves.
Fist to fist, head to head,
I will fight till the other is dead.
I wont back down, i will stand tall,
Come against me or after her? Your not getting up from that fall.

Shrouded in darkness,
Smothered in pain,
Causing this hell,
To come again,
And will i choose to walk,
or to stay?
Or will i learn,
Learn to walk away.
Im done with this,
The light is gone,
Bust still im here,
Though i know you want me gone.
I wish i was gone too,
But you dont undertand,
What i chose to be,
I shose to be more than a man.
Im a shadow,
Im a demon,
Im from hell, and heaven,
Somewhere between them.
I surfacing,
In a world of hate,
Im stuck on in the water,
Like im the bait.
Baiting those creatures,
From the depths,
You dont want to catch them,
You want it to be my death.
Well im done with your ****,
So find another sacrifice,
Im powerless,
Cause im stuck in a straight-jackets vice.
Ive got my problems,
You have plenty of yours,
Im not takeing conflicts,
Im not taking anymore.
Fend for yourselves,
Leave me out,
Like you always do,
I remember with absolutely no doubt.
Im done here,
Thanks for hearing my show,
But ask yourselves this:
What do YOU know?

Why must i be angry,
Why cant i be happy,
Im stuck with this disease,
It slowly eats at me,
Causing pain and suffering,
Instea of the good things im enjoying,
The pain, the evil,
Cause that is my seal,
My call, my path,
I leave behind a trail of wrath.
See it on the ground, an on their faces,
I am the thing that thrives in dark places,
I listen to the rock and the metal,
But i have no purpose and im like the kettal,
Only talked about as if im a joke,
I have a purpose, i hope you all choke,
This is my life, its not yours,
Shut up and leave or you blood will pour,
Flow down the streets, feed the rats,
Cause thats where ur body will be left at,
The forgotten place,
The evil space,
The longforgotten sorrow,
Youll find me tomorrow,
Sittin right here, not a change in mind,
But thats because they left me behind,
Suffering within my own head,
Please **** me or let yourselves be dead,
None shall survive,
None shall thrive,
Just take this from me,
And let me be,
Take my anger,
Leave me with laughter,
Im tired of being mad,
Id wrather be sad,
But i dont care,
Just dont sit there and stare.
Im stuck in a state of semi anger,
Just dont touch or youll go over,
Over the side,
Theres nowhere to hide,
Your dead now,
I dont know how,
But ur gone so it doesnt matter,
How you hit the ground, look at the blood splatter.

Stuck between two names,
Stuck between two destinies,
Will I go up in flames,
Or will I be consumed by the beast in me,
I want find my place,
In this world that empties me,
But I want to disappear without a trace,
But that I know can never be,
One or the other,
I must choose,
Should I find love with another,
Or all of it will i lose.