So I got thinking....
Maybe I'm the witch in my own fairytale...

Lets play a game,
Where you pretend you actually love me,
Instead of telling me that my eyes are the same colour
as your favourite pair of jeans that you constantly poke holes in.

Or where you don't tell me that my smile is like a toe nail,
Because I know how much you don't like your toe nails.
Don't tell me my eyes have the same sparkle as stars,
Then go on to mention how stars are small and insignificant.

For this game only don't compliment my physical appearance,
Tell me  how my poetry speaks to your soul,
Even though I know very well how much you hate it,
Tell me I have a beautiful heart without having to compare me to mother Theresa.

No wait lets change the rules,
You are going to sit there and listen to me while I talk,
You are not allowed to interrupt me,
I never do

So before I tell you that its over,
I think you should know that my eyes will not be compared to a pair of jeans you got for $50
They are worth more than that,
My smile is like the crescent shape of a moon,
Not the toe nails you never liked.

And you know what,
Stars are not insignificant you are
And lastly you might not like my poetry,
But I do.

If I was to die today and someone asked you to describe me what would you say?
                I'll make it easy for you

Tell them I was a ****** with a big ♥ heart,
Even though the love wasn't enough I gave my all
Tell them I was an above average student who
procrastinated a lot but had huge dreams
Tell them I gave up too easily but refused to be called a quitter

Tell them I came alive onstage the moment the spotlight hit my face
But I never got enough time to shine
Tell them I had random dance moments at the wrong times but didn't care cause I was shameless
Tell them I had more fingers than people I could trust
But that didn't make me lose hope in them


Tell them I wasn't loved widely but deeply
Tell them I only fell in love with one person and it  was like that till the day I died
Tell them I chose to smile instead of giving way to my problems
But that doesn't mean my eyes didn't lick once in a while

Tell them I walked with confidence like I was trying to balance a crown
But I didn't have hubris
Tell them I didn't choose to be born but I'm glad I was

Do you ever zone out in class,
Have the physically present,
Mentally Absent moments,
Where you let your mind wonder?

Because your body may allow it,
But your thoughts are claustrophobic,
They can't be caged.

He could see she was hurting
so he did what most people would do
He took a glass of water and placed it in front of her
Then he asked,

"is the glass half full or half empty?"
She looked at him for a while then said
"if I tell you the glass is half full will I be able
to drown my sorrows in it?"


Seeing that she still had a negative outlook on life
He simply said No
But see this wasn't the first time someday said that to her,
So she replied,
"You are right, my pain manifests itself in the form of water
of course it would survive..."

F-for acting like a surgeon,
operating on a heart you did not break,
For showing up at the wrong times in my life,
and being the glue that brought all the pieces together.

R- remembering the times I let my demons
get the best of me,
When I removed my dragon from its leash,
left it to obliterate everything on its way,
Although you were a victim,
You still remained my angel in disguise.

I-it takes betrayal to know what loyalty is
It takes great darkness to finally know the light,
when you see it
It takes having to trust the wrong people,
To realise the ones who were honest from the start.

E-everything happens for a reason I've been told,
Things fall apart so great things can be built,
Enemies are our 'best friends'
But that is not always the case.

N-no word in a dictionary is ever good enough
for a poet,
To describe that which makes them happy,
And no weapon fashioned against one will ever,
Prosper.

D-dictionaries have their own meanings,
People have also come up with theirs,
But if anyone is to ask me the meaning of friend,
I'll probably smile and say,
"Tanaka".

#I'd say you are my flashlight as well but,
You are the stars in the dark sky of my life.

There will be a day when things fall apart ,
Super glue wont be able to fix them.
The day chocolate loses its power to comfort,
When Trevor Noah's jokes longer have the healing effect,
The day you'll sleep with the hope of waking up with amnesia.
When the nightmares become so vivid you start to believe they are real.
The day you realise your wish we'll never come true
because you made it upon an ordinary star.
The day when the yoke becomes too heavy you decide to let some skeletons out of the closet.

There will be a day when sorry doesn't have the power to restore,
When your smiles and laughs are consumed by the pain in your heart.
The day the jokes are no longer as funny but hurtful,
The day you decide to be physically present, mentally absent and emotionally detached,
when you shut the whole world out,
plug your headphones,
play music on loud.
The day the words "Bandaids cant fix bullet holes" actually make sense
The day you cry so hard even Niagra falls will sympathise with you.

But before that days comes when you are at your lowest point,
When you decide to let your confidence drop to the concrete,
When you decide to give way to the arrows life will throw at you,
Just remember the light at the end of a tunnel might be an oncoming train,
But in the morning the sun will  definitely shine.