I don't know when
I don't know why

but I feel the ropes you had tied around me
have snapped

you still desperately tug at them
trying to get me back
trying to tie me up again

but my connection broke
your ties broke

I can finally move
I can finally breathe
I'm finally free

when I leave
would you remember?
when I run
would we run together?
when I'm done with everything, when I move away and change my name
would you still think of me the same?

with burnt wings
he flew away
boy of sunlight
now crowned with darkness
surrounded by broken things
now only filled with regret and pain

I'm watching myself
as I fall apart
I watch my bones turn to dust
I hear the failing of my heart
and I look around
they are smiling as they stare
because even when I'm dying
no one even tries to care

I can't look
I cover my eyes in fear
I want to close this book
I don't wanna shed a tear
but I have to face this
I have to open my eyes
because just for today
without any lies
I wanna look in this mirror
and feel okay

I don't want to return
my mind keeps going back
back to despair

I want to rest
can I just lay here?
maybe it would be the best
for me to just disappear