close my eyes
take a breath
then I dive
to my death
as I'm falling
I see your face
its her name that you're calling
I've been replaced

you grab something sharp
and pierce your skin
then you act out your part
and keep your feelings in
but I see through your smile
I see past your act
you've been hurting for a while
and that is a fact
you want to be saved
but no one is ever there
so you're forced to brave
and act like you don't care
well you can talk to me
for hours on the phone
share what others can't see
you don't have to go through this alone
come into my arms
it'll all be okay
turn off the alarms
you put on your heart each day
I'll be strong for you
but just remember
no matter what you believe to be true
it never rains forever

the truth is right in front of their face
they choose to look the other way
an illusion is what their mind is based
they don't want to see the thunder storms of May

the mother doesn't want to face reality
though its right in front of her
the father doesn't want it to be
they both let their heads blur

but their daughter will soon be dead
following in her older brother's steps
the 17 year old crack head
their footsteps silently crept

down the stairs
or out the window
claiming they need fresh air
they're really smoking *** though

everyone just turns away
shielding themselves from the truth
but what happened to their son Jay
and where is their daughter Ruth

both have disappeared
the mother and father burst out in tears
forced to face what they secretly always feared
having no right to cry since they were never really here

so what happened to Jay
and 15 year old Ruth
both had a price to pay
since their parents chose not to see the truth

I grab my brush
painting in a rush
I make long strokes with red
a picture image in my head
the brush paints deeply
the feeling of it completes me
the lights are turned off
as I remove the cloth
revealing my painting
seeing everyone mentally fainting
I smile at their looks of regret
the art I showed them is one they'll never forget
they take away my brushes
and my heart crushes
but I'll always find a way to paint
so everyone, just wait

Me being a teenager has nothing to do
with the way I act towards you
can't you see?
oh of course not because you know nothing about me
we have never been close
you feel like spending five minutes  with me is an overdose
I have never been able to talk to you about anything
even more so now that you have a new wedding ring
you both act like out of control 18 year olds
I can't even count the amount of lies you've told
we try to do things as a family
but it seems like theres always some place you'd rather be
you can never make up for all those time you've left me home alone
yet you wonder why I complain and groan
all you ever want is to party and drink
I wish you would just stop and think
do you know how much I crave your attention
well you never will
because these thoughts I will never mention
I'll just pop another happy pill