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Monkey Jun 2014
What is it that holds me back?
Stops me from shouting out how much I hate you
Or love you
I don't even know
There a ball of fury festering deep with in me
But it just won't show its self
It choses to hide among one of my many masks
The masks that have decieved many including me
What is this boiling sensation that grinds my emotions into nothingness
Leaves me with nothing to feel
But its own emptiness
Strips me of everything that I knew my self to be
What are you
What do you want from me
Monkey Jun 2014
I hate how quick silly human beings are to judge
Just becuase i'm a teen and I wear baggy clothes
Doesn't mean i'm mean and don't understand your pains
Just becuase I have headphones on
Doesn't mean i'm a teenage punk who doesn't doesn't know any better
Just because I smoke
Doesn't mean you can point me out to your children as a bad example
If you could only see your own faults first
Oh how you'd wish to be in someone elses place
But that wouldn't fix anything
No matter who you are
You will always have faults
You can only acheive what you percieve as perfection
Once you fix the flaws you can fix and accept the flaws that you can't
But all these silly humans do is point fingers at others to cover up their own faults
Such silly creatures
Monkey Jun 2014
Appreciate what you have they say
Some people would die for the life you have they say
They're so materialistic
They don't realize that a life filled with luxuries is not what makes us happy
How can I appreciate what I have without having the emotions to appreciate it?
How can I appreciate what I have if its not what I need?
I never asked to be be born into this wealth.
All I need to appreciate life is for someone to appreciate me for who I am.
It might look like I can live a great with all of what I have
But that would only be true if I were to be like the rest of them
But no
I'm not
And no one can blame me for that
Am I to suffer for accepting who I am
I don't think so
I won't let it happen
And whoever thinks they can make me suffer for being who I am they can go and **** them selves
Even if the people who don't accept me for who I am are my family
This has no end
Monkey Jun 2014
Just the though of being. What does it bring to your mind? What is it to be? Or is it even to be to really be? Can we be with just our physical existence? Or does being go deeper than that? Does being mean that we have to exist in more than just the physical realm? Does being mean we have to be part of somethig beyond our imaginations? Being part of a realm of reality that isn't imagined by our brains? Is being something that surpasses life and death? Being is the essence of existing. To be we must understand what it is to exist as what we are and not as who we are. To exist we must go beyond life and death and enter a realm that excceds time. A realm where we are exist as beings who do not live nor die but just exist. A realm where everything is real and non of the illusions that we see in our physical existence exists. That is to be with out words. Thats is to be with everything that we are and not with what we aren't. That is the existence of the essence of being an existing being.
Monkey Jun 2014
Before all beings rise with the darkness and non beings fade away with the light, the colors will blind time.
After the darkness has evaporated into light, and the light has condensed into darkness, time will be exposed.
As part of the interest of the existing, we are merely one form of energy with many different sides.
We know not of the shallowest secrets of our non existence yet we harness our selves over the illusions that our mere existence plays on us.
So why does that make us? Because our non existence is depleting? Or is our existence entering the realm of eternally existent beings?
Something that is we can not know before looking past the blocks of existing masses of anti-time. We must be the ones who create the anti-darkness that will find the beings that flow in the opposite direction of time. We must invest the time that we are given in time that we are denied and find out when the undertaking of time will take place so we can create the realm of anti-time. We must not let our senses of the flow get blinded with colors that don't exist in reality. Unless we know for a fact that time can be opposed, we shall never attempt to break time off our realm of imagination. For if the force of the end fails to block the flow of time, time can never be stopped ever again. Resulting in a new realm where no beginning has an end, and no end has a beginning. This is the realm where even non existence can not exist. The realm of a new classification of non existence to exist. This is the realm where everything that has ever happened in the past and future exists on its own, not allowing anything else to coexist. This is the beginning of the old end that was meant to exist before time did. This is the birth of a new time that shares the same name with its resister but flows in the direction of the beginning. This is emit.
Monkey Jun 2014
I tried
I did my best
I gave it my all
But I couldn’t get to you
You were just too far out of my reach
I was like a flying insect flying towards flame because it bright
But not knowing that it would burn me
I guess you just weren’t right for me
You made me realize who I really was
Monkey Jun 2014
Here I am again
In this room
Completely dark
Completely silent
Completely empty
I don't know anything
All I can think of is her
The way she abandoned me
Collected all my value
And left
She took my light away
She took my air with her
She took everything
And now i'm empty
It's amazing how such actions from one specific person
Could influence you more than anything else
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