nobody warns you about the first boy who tells you he wants to marry you.
nobody warns you about the tangible shift in the universe when he parts his lips to smile.
nobody warns you about the poetry he'll write you or how your knees will weaken or the melancholy hidden between the layers of his laughter.
nobody warns you that miles will morph into lightyears and you will curse the ocean for being the only thing that keeps his fingers from resting between yours.
nobody warns you about the day his sweater doesn't smell like him anymore.
nobody warns you that human hands are incapable of holding a person together.
nobody warns you that sometimes love is not enough, no matter how much you wish it was.
nobody warns you about the crippling nostalgia that renders you breathless.
nobody warns you about the nights when silence screams for your blood.
nobody warns you about the crater that forms in your chest in the middle of the night when he doesn't answer.
nobody warns you about how it's going to feel when he tells you he's in love with someone else.
Fall, fall hard, with every cell of your being Smack into it Let it seep and fill, congest your thought Your eyes turn to owls Your ears turn to bats Feel the weight of a million clouds trapped They will blow your body apart From trigger and touch Compression of love
I have a wish, I have a dream, As silly as they both may seem, And if my wish would just come true, I'd wish nothing but the best for you. And waking from my dream, I'd find You'd wished the same for me, in kind.