My black isn't illustrated
Nobody has read about me
My black don't blend in
It's always blossoming outwards
My black is so strong
No it won't fold
It keeps a steady hand
Always holding on
Unless god say let go
Then my black *** isn't moving on
My black isn't scared to die
It's living I fear
Cuz my black got so much hate
But I wasn't a mistake
I love my haters anyway
My Black Essence
Is Excellent
It's the thickness in my hair
The curves in my body
That'll make everyone eyes
Gloss
When I walk by
Now I'm memorized
In my blackness
You cnt deny me!!

You want my love
Well I want mines too
I be struggling to smile
Better yet make you
Portraying a image
that I'm strong
But in the sheets I'm crying
Fighting myself
When I would be doing just fine
If I leave my faith in the lord
Instead of losing my mind
It just seem like every time
I find happiness
I lose out on time
And time is money
No wonder I'm broke
On payday
Tryna scramble up change
To get through the day
I just want my daughter to enjoy her life
Since we get 1 try
I don't want her to see my pain
But lately it's the only thing in site
I hate feeling like I failed
That's why I cnt lose you
It's like your strength charges me up
Your "I love you" give me so much boost
You for me
Is like what spinach was for Popeyes
A chance to be your wife
Baby I'll wait a lifetime!
W/o Zoe and you
I have no life line
So listen to me when I tell you
Baby I love you
Just let me show you I'm here for you!
But at the same time I'm tryna build me too
I'm trying to find a good job and go back to school....
When you come home I want to have home
Ready for you
Nomore streets
Just you, the kids and me
So stop questioning me!

There is so much I want to say
But it's like the words won't come out
I'm in this world where I'm alone
It's like I'm in between earth and hell
My daughter is the only thing that feels real
I fear that one day she'll be stuck here too
Feeling the same pain
But I pray she dnt
Though I doubt this praying **** works
My feet took so many turns
Never had guidance
Hopeless parents
Drugs and *** faded them
Now both are fading me
Need both just to feel something
Reaching out for help
All I get is "it gets better"
Stop telling me that **** and help me now
Or I'll just end all my suffering
With a line through my vines
Under my skin
Rip them out of my roots
Like those who had my heart did me
My soul burns every time I wake up
Just let me sleep
Never let my eye lids separate again
I hate life
I hate my life
I've been ****** over, tortured 90% of it.
I'm tired!!!!!

Just let me fall into bed and die,
Let my soul finish burning into the dust
So I am not reborn!
I have much I want to say but who would listen?