"Does it really get better? Or do we just get used to it?"

It's very early in the morning, this is what I feel.

But, what's new?

This is what I feel everyday.

even if you're super dead inside

                  you need to fight.

            fight.  
                
                                  'cause in the end,
                              you're still the one who's gonna
                                 build yourself up again.

Everything you see are beautiful
Every people in your eyes are attractive



                 But, you. Why don't you see yourself
                    just like what you see with your eyes?

"Was it the wrong time
What if we tried?
Giving in a little more
To the warmth we had before"
- Lifetime by Ben and Ben

What if I tried a little bit more?
What will happen if I just ignore the thoughts inside my head?

Too many questions came into my mind.
Questions I can only answer if I continue. But I don't know if I'm still able to answer it, because now it's gone. I gave up.  
I think too much about what's inside my mind, but everything was true. I do not deserve you, because there is something more worthy of you. There's someone who deserves you. And that is not me.

What if I just ignored the thoughts on my head? Am I that someone?