Trying to decipher the art of letting go,
Weighing all the options of things that I now know.
To free my soul of all that's heavy,
I cannot do it til I'm ready.
Giving up the struggle and pain,
Bringing shelter from the rain.
Loves supposed to concur all,
Not the reason why I fall.
Giving up is not my game,
But all the days seem like the same.
I need to initiate some change,
So all this pain is not in vain.
Letting go of all my fear,
All balled up in one big tear.
Making room for all that's good,
Living in the life I should.
Prepared by all the lessons learned,
To take the thrown that I have earned.
I live my life with love and kindness,
Soon I will be your highness.
A humble boss with grace and poise,
Who also knows to bring the noise.
Treating all with true respect,
Though not taking any ****.
I'm a goddess to the core,
I need to change my life before.
I never reach my full potential,
Taking the first step's essential.
One step, two step, three step, four,
I won't suffer any more.

Love multiplies it doesn't divide,
Souls fly high and hearts collide.
Igniting a flame to lead the way,
Burning brighter every day.
Kindred spirits, meant to be,
Forever living gracefully.
Entwined as one, gaining power,
Preparing for the strongest shower.
Splendid shelter feels so warm,
Gazing eyes in which adorn.
Eternal love that's shared so true,
One plus one, equals, me plus you....

Suffering is inevitable,
Essential to the way we grow.
Forcing you to dig down deep,
Pleasures you are soon to reap.
Refining you're inner strength,
Transcending to a place you're meant,
To be and use the lessons learned,
Knowing its a life you've earned.
Way beyond the minds conception,
Lives a life that's you're perfection,
Better than you ever thought,
In return for all you've fought,
Payment for the strength and tears,
As you've conquered all your fears,
Building up your daily armor,
Forced upon for you to harbor,
Fortitude with attitude,
Bring upon an interlude,
Pause, think and recollect,
Learning most in retrospect,
Evolving to a higher self,
Bionic with grace and stealth,
Grateful for my path to life,
Love wrapped up disguised as strife,
I live, I love, I learn, I grow,
I break, I fall, I reap, I sew.

Trying to figure out where I'm being guided,
Trusting what's inside, where I have confided.
Filtering through the flooding emotion,
Objectively viewing with love and devotion.
Bring me the insight on what I should see,
Give me a sign, please enlighten me.
Continual perseverance til the end.
A broken heart forever will mend.
Over and over tribulations present,
Pondering over what's intent.
Evolving and molding to upgraded she,
Challenging limits where skies used to be.
How can I decipher the message inside,
Is it telling me to run and hide?
Fool me once shame on you,
Fool me twice and I know what to do.
Knowing is just half the battle,
Is this sent here just to rattle.
Just how bad do I want this?
Can I live without your kiss?
Is life doing what I cannot?
Life without you I forgot.
Am I blind to what is there?
Attached to you, bound by fear.
Or is this what true loves for,
Never closing up the door
I wish I may I wish I might,
Never giving up the fight.

How do I describe my feelings inside,
When all I wanna do is run and hide.
Embarrassed that I trusted so much,
Lie after lie leaves only disgust.
Thoughts so quickly racing through my head,
What did I do to be deserted?
Why was my love less than enough,
Why does my life need to be so tough?
Stronger and stronger I get with the pain,
Proud of my self for not going insane.
The one that I trusted with all of my life,
Ripped through my heart and twisted the knife.
Tears on my pillow sooth me to sleep,
I wish I could so something other than weep.
Tear after tear releasing my fear,
Internal ego taunting with jeer.
Blinded by love I wished you were true,
I couldn't accept this is what you would do.
Though you were better than who you've become,
My heart is in pieces, our love story's done.
I pray that my heart can love once again,
I pray that someone can help it to mend.
That someone is me and I am now my best friend,
At least I know I will love me til the end.

I love love
I am not above love
We fit like a glove love
Pure as if a dove love
I love it
I need it
Continually breed it
Transferring energy where it is needed

I can't wait for the day I can see why this happened,
Why everything broke and my heart was flattened.
I foresee a time where days aren't blue,
The days that aren't sad worrying about you.
Worried about all the lies and deception,
I wish you could see your ***** reflection.
As I fell apart, I was falling in place,
Hoping that I could erase,
The pain and sorrow you stabbed me with,
I thought this torture was a myth.
I'm proud of who I have become and who I'll come to be,
Spreading love to all I meet and everything I see.
I am a work in progress at a rapid rate,
Letting go of what I want, succumbing to my fate.
I do not know what's in store but I do know I am strong,
I can handle anything battling the wrong.
I have a special purpose here on this place we call earth,
I'm a blessing from above delivered here at birth.
I need to stay focused upon the true meaning of life,
Not upon the things that hurt and bring along the strife.
Life such a precious gift that can't be taken for granted.
I cannot wait until the day that my fears are recanted.