It's fun when you're no-thing-ness and one comes along Ee-Da-**** Wrex some **** sometimes.
But it's okay hopefully Yamaya stitches it all back together in time.
We can all find the forms needed to respect the moments we're given and fill the cracks with golden behaviours that echo more than this falliable false-saviour

I like being useful, having fun, learning, playing, etc.
having a body/being human/making decisions/thinking/remembering meh
not into it

Eiheurmentated - gleerage

Jahous - yaos

Eiayeeae

Tiiyaee

Teiyaruh

Maiyeae

You cannot sit around paralyzed by rhe fear of the ticking clock
if you don't move around your joints go on lock

Your fears are all twisted around as the not
it makes your brain go all mushy with rot

It has all fallen apart much worse than this before
and the heros journey isn't much different than lore

Surived this that and will again
knowing how the river bends

Don't make yourself sick with worry or anger
fear is the mind-killer that leads you to danger

Focus on the simple - the ins and outs of breath
tread water quickly, kicking your legs to avoid the depth

The core, of working up the strenth to do more.
bouncing off the walls - at least not the floor.

Eyes were always pointed down, worried I'd miss the next step
but chin up, eyes forward, is a way to maintain the pep

Remember to bring yourself to stand tall
confidence to dance instead of fall

Pride and confidence, ego and narcissism
not knowing where to defend and where to say yes'm

It's the mini moments that make the most out of momentum
and mega meta merrymaking modilties mean more than modems

Having a hard time deciphering what got me in this twist
I guess I'll just go and take a look at my list.

What's good, what's bad, what's to do or to see
what's real in the world, or just inside me?

hindsight being 20/20 we now know the learnings that we get from allowing male chauvin-ist pigs to make rules for others, get away with more than their share, and the issues of figureheads for the masses. We are doing better after this day, this is the upswing. Thanks for you.

WE are better now, we are smarter now, we take our learnings forward, we love with our fullest selves, and we. GET. BETTER.
This is not shame, this is guilt, we learn from mistakes.... and we believe in rehabilitation.

Swarm is forever.

Only some cops are bad now that we'll have the ability to decipher who can deal with the call of duty and who cannot.

I want to see the highest timeline,
Like none that came before,
Allow us to find grace and power
To make life more than merely chore

Everything is hot/cold intense,
***** getting exposed
both figuratively and literally...
can't tell if the eyes sting of allergens or tears
and I'm tryin to hold to my morals.

So, we're having an interesting series of challenges, I tells you.

These april showerings likely may deflowerings -

all the twitterpation makes me vibrate
with feelings of fight, flight, fawn or fright.


**** this

How you win big! Healing, growth. Quick successes. Find the helpers, and amplify their efforts. Manifest strength. Clear out he old. Get better regulated with behavioural gold. Continue on the path, no suffering on suffering. Good catharsis. Continued betterment. Protect aether.

Romancing the aether. If soul mates are just little parts of the big bang that are meandering their way back.  Knowing everyone is just a little remix of what they came across up to that point... then maybe when you meditate and be one with the universe you're just allowing everything to reorganize back to it's natural space. Telling everyone that their learned fears and hatred are not necessary... we're all fragile little bits of stardust trying to find where we fit again. If you give love, and understand that we all just want to survive, feel happy and loved... then it's so much easier to abandon all these unnecessary negatives we have collected. Fall in love with everything and nothing. Be appreciative of the space between.

Hearts keep breaking, illnesses keep taking our loves away, nobody's here to stay. We keep on chuggin, sportin mean muggin, keeping woes at bay, isn't that the way? </3

but I had never heard those stories
nor do I want to know how others use me in their protagonist stories

fighting so many battles
inside our own

It's like I tell Missionaries
"I don't want to be a tool for your salvation"

But everyone has their own life to live

I gotta focus on making my story great

The villain always paints the hero with weird hues to gain followers

but those who stand in infinite truth are seen from miles away

I know so many stories that aren't mine,
that won't make sense to anyone? Fine.
I have tales, that can never be told,
by those alive and dead, those so bold.
There's a reason I only try to help
'cause I've heard so many people yelp.
No reason for us to hurt so
more than you? no
Tried to do something great
Got lost in ideations; big mistake
Apparently trauma can make you better
If you don't sit in it and fester

"3, 6, 9, 13
The whole be greater than the sum of parts.
I'm just tryin' to be chordial with you, kids

when the C, E, G forms a whole C again - that's harmony, baby!"

Waking up just as tired as I am going to sleep.
I hope you speak up, peep.
Cause the wolves are counting sheep.
Lined up, looking good to eat.
They're our friends, this won't be cheap.
It's time for the void, quantum leap.

There is nobody but maybe your parents who can treat you better than you can treat yourself, you know how hard it is to get a good manager, doctor, agent, or partner? Nah, friend, might as well start assembling your own manual, 'cause nobody can save you if you can't save you.

Meet the maker inside
I'm sure you'll find
inside you just as any other
the holy spirit resides

why does a spirited one
have to go ghosting around for others
if she's too invisitble to be seen anyhow
when nobody ex-spectres the un-ex-spectered

she rarely gets invited out either
when she can be so scary and goes boo

most just want to put their ***** in the holy
'cause she's been worn through
but what they don't see is that anyone else
could be just as shiny, too.

Did that so long that she became a ghost in tthe streets, the sheets, and to her too.
So, what else is a poor ghost to do?

I can hear the wind against the window.
The blinds are low and beneath my breath I whisper, "No."
I doubt I will have many reasons to acknowledge anything outside my tower when the snow holds the ground as it's dominion.

I dislike the cold.
I thought outside was supposed to get frigid - not me.

"Maybe I should've hit you more as a child"
is a really weird way to say thanks, but it's what I get.

I'm but a remix of those who opened doors.
I keep searching knowing there's something more,
cause I got sick and tired of always staring at the floor.

The "flaw" of attraction is only thinking it - our heart is our leader, the brain just assembles data from the time line to self-confirm whatever bias we hold.

Abracadabra = as I say, so it is created. ❤

crystalized self is finding those you see the most often, and pouring epic amounts of love into them so they don't basically, continually reinfect you with sad stories... it sounds weird, but we're a houseplant with more complicated emotions and a machine learning ai with a lot of faulty, burdensome code that needs to get a little cleaned up. Lol.

You're going to all be so much more amazing when you are allowed to see with new eyes.

Whatever feels good is meant for us - turn towards the light so shadows may fall behind - fear keeps us little, but children, they learn so much faster 'cause we assume they're dumb, and we teach them what we want, we ask them to behave the way we need them to to respect our boundaries.

❤ Brave new opportunities for us to see past the fire is love, opportunity, and we can always walk around the BBQ pit instead of right in it if we stop staring at the flicker.

Core-Ra - inner sun.
timeline twister, finally won,
victory be to those spin with phi
on the yellow brick rode to self fulfilling fantasy
amplify the nodes, to find the few in the many
while you're seeing yourself no different from any  
qi be whole not single source, quantum.

Achievement Unlocked: p and I have been working for you to do this with you for years now you are going on with me to get you a little more grounded out of this is a good one that will help us understand the situation I got in with my body in preparation and the fact of my mind and my brother has been very clear that he was a lot more sense now and he is not going there but like actionable current policy on his Instagram page he says he cannot do that to me so much that I can get the job just for a few years and have to be able and I will get you a new one for me and you will have a great time to get back up to your need to do it with your hands all day so decided to make a list for this one cause you know how it is and what it does this thing is that way if they don't want you two to chat and host some of my friends don't like it was just that you are the best I have a good one that will help me get the same idea as your teacher and student at a distance you're not supposed I know how it works and society is not going there instead to help you out a lot more sense then you have a great day to post to insta and double down the line you're going through a few times before or when you're going through this layer of the game and get a few things done if the world doesn't work then do what I do it is a great idea tonight and it is time for me and your team should be good at the game to get a good team and I think you can do a better Brette game than the average bear is going up to a lot more than I am so glad you were able and to get the best for the game to get the game back to you but you are a lot more than I do what you think of that is so good to be able and I have to be able and to get the ball rolling and the game to get the game back and we will have a lot more than I do for work and if I have a chance on the team to talk about it i am not going there but like actionable content I can get the same amount as the gut's in a few more times in the next step and we will have a good day for the team

Divine design, you will become what you're meant to become.

You will be tempted, baited, irritated and infatuated.

Nuture self, stay with your gut, be present, mindful and fill each good moment with power.

Show up for yourself.
Fully realize the chance you have to be happy, better, stronger.

You have choices you make along the way... how do you allow yourself, surrender to yourself and the moment?

Why do we keep staying with our brain imagining old stories, and designing new futures that never become when we can stay with self, hands and mind.... where we can do things.

Be here meow.  

Good people deserve to take up good space.
Be passionate. Stay yourself. You are brilliant, my star. <3

I am solid,  I am smart, I am safe...
I am seeking solace in words and whispers to protect me from the mind's night.

Be light - both as a feather and also able to illuminate the sky with brightness and happiness.

Now is the time. I will be alright.

Still haven't punched anyone in the face!! 🙂

Plant it with your finger,
or a digital footprint,
new life will spring forth

Arrived finally,
pretty sure this is my home,
among planted seeds

Thank you for being here,
I was searching forever,
for my kind to exist ♡

Motivational Mondays mean my mind must move mindfully, morally ... more megalithically. My modes marred, matted, marking mere moments made mighty mired matriarichally mending musty mindtraps and melting my modalities making a massive megazord made of multitudes of memories.

I remember why the echoes are here... it's hard lessons that will reappear. Each time I forget what I am taught, the pains come back again; remind me I ought not let the moral of the story be forgot.

Remember, the current is the best part of the river, its a lil dangerous, but you can do so many thrilling tricks. You can't stand in the same river twice, anyhow. Stop being in the shallows, jump in' - the waters fine.

Not everyone knows
what shakes in between atoms
likely some do here

it's a nifty thing
speaking in a sort of code
filled with beat and flow

loving riddles and rhymes
palindromes and the wordplay
when I'm challenged I speak

truth comes in between
what is and what could have been
it's hard to have voice

all of the vibrations
abracadabra and all
intention is everything

taking solace in
knowing what is meant for me
will appear when needed

the aether speaks softly
for those who dare to listen
to the spaces in between

Please let the wise ones watch over me
Please let the ones who soar set me free

Please have the dark ones keep me safe at night
And the illuminated ones light the path so bright

May the tricksters remind me it's all a game
And the ones with epic strength provide me with gains

May the learned ones speak to my mind
And the ever knowing shorten the search to find

My self, my heart, my mind and spirit
My voice, the sounds and the ears to hear it

Guide my hands, my words and my essence
To where the highest good would have my presence

I am here, whole, one and a part of all
Keep me getting up after every fall

Neona

Who told you you were supposed to be happy, without pain, or suffering?
The ego lies.
Suffer with me, purposely.
These are the wars we choose to fight so the wars don't get fought against us or inside us.
New story for me? I enjoy this pain now. I choose this pain. I thought I didnt love myself, that's why I never could take care of myself... nah.
I loved myself too much that I thought I was above this "life", that I "deserved better"
I choose this battle, now. I am here for it. Hi.

Lala from the N to the S and the E plus some W. Here to slice you off some fruity zest.

Whoa-den skoden, manifested reality - bolden.
More time with the fore-time, when's the next moontime?

The future is debt on the choices we make now.
When you meet yourself then, better make yourself proud.

it all is, has been and will be, we must show up with our males and females in balance in each moment we can.... internally first. I hope as a female outward, your male innards are better than anyone who presents male outwardly.
We made them act "manly" for us for a long time, when the feminine insides in roughened exteriors ended up making mistepps out of heavy expectations... then we just .. made excuses for bad behaviour, and self-hatred applied to justify the swings....
when internally we're in charge of the balancings.

I feel like you'll like that, too.

My writings are coming out weird and faster now

I've been picturing the universal balancing points.

like what if whenever someone showed up "too needy" "too Much" "too this" --- was just the balancing point.
of what I was hiding.

since we're all mostly projectionists. so.... I'm trying to show up more balanced.

just to see... my friend likened it to the stillness that reflects...

mirror surface

You never needed anyone to understand before - why start caring now?
You'll never win over the haters
and you'll lose your lovers,
trying to fit into someone else's mold.
Girl, do what you love to do,
Say what you feel is true.
As long as you learned as you grew.
Babe, you do you.
Yeah, you do you.

Did you find a goal or game?
Your claim to fame or the dance and swerve of lanes?
You're the only one who has been with yourself through all the moments of the day.
If you have yet to figure out your way - there is nobody to blame.
Babe, you do you.
Yeah, you do you.

My version of this is the ole 6 to 1...
If I catch myself saying something negative about myself I have to compliment sandwich the eff out of myself.
For instance, today...
"I can't believe you slept pretty much the whole day away..."
Is a negative I woke up with, so, adding a minimum of 6 positive buffers to keep my mind aligned to success.
"You deserved the rest for all the stress."
"You are likely needed a longer sleep since you deny yourself it regularly."
"Yesterday you did two loads of dishes, rearranged furniture, worked on a bunch of projects and connected with many people."
"You are in the process of resetting subluxed shoulderblades."
"Ehlers Danlos Syndrome makes you into an athlete who needs to recoup energy."
"It is Saturday, have a great weekend, so what you can, but don't ever stop."
"Rest time and active work time are valued the same."
"If I get up now and start the day, there's still time."
♡
Turns out, if you don't want to have to think about how to "fix" the one negative... you start being more positive generally.
And that is a kindness we all deserve.
Also, its scientifically proven to be more effective than criticism. So, are you being mean to yourself cause you actually want to get stuff done or because you're addicted to thinking you're a ****** human?
You're a great human.
Thanks for trying to be better. ♡

I found an inflatable crown. Here comes a lording lady, built up by hot air.

I think it is wizardry.

I've been grounding,
breathing up like a tree reaching out,
hitting white light,
drawing it back into self,
tensing up - redistributing self as shadow holding point, acknowledging fullness,
finding error,
releasing - then I grab the knot and I hold it for a minimum of 10 seconds,
thank it for it's service but let it know I'm trying to rebuild and repeat.

Like a Bene Gesserit she talks with her hands faster than she could with her tongue and if you were honoured enough you could put your hand in her Gom Jabbar~ the spice must flow.

An ex once told me he'd murdered before,
and not all the bodies had been found,
To which I retorted, "Don't threaten ME with a good time -
I can't wait to be six feet underground."

Why dont you just do what you can't so I don't have to see you suffer? Says the lover to the other.

I am learning patience through irritations,

to love in the face of fear and hate,

how to breathe and speak

when choked up with emotion,

how to survive and be well

when I feel like I am dying

and doubled over in pain,

and how to face reality

when everything feels so surreal.

Once you struggle through the toughest moments,

the average seems simple.

I am still here.

I show up to downtown just as everyone starts heading out. It was such beautiful chaos and carnage. Wigs, masks, bits of feather boas literring the streets. The lost and fearful gaze of those trying to locate their brethren. Panicked phonecalls, fights over cabs. Glass and debris everywhere... The stale stench of smashed beer bottles mixed with the thick scent of ***** that you can blatantly see trailing down the asphalt from the alleyway. I kind of like the after-hour societal decay more than I might have enjoyed the night itself. Gross realness. I mean that as two meanings... The sheer amount and the level of filth. Glorious.

Looking for the thing you lack usually means you ignore who's got your back

I wanna be up in autumn but we all fall down sometimes

...I called in help for re-locating my shoulders....
my body has been on the edge of fasting a lot.

Popping myofacial and muscle knots...
bruising appears,
skin dries and becomes scaly...

got help legit holding it in place while I snake writhed it closer to intended positioning.

Bawled cause the pain is so searing and real.

"What was that?"
"I let it go."

Sometimes we feel most comfortable slouched over into a little protected ball...
our body's give and curl and build up the strength where we couldn't.

For years I was propped up, tensed to ****...
and my body tried to come to my rescue while I shifted and forgot about the beautiful clustering of bits.

A circus of cells with no ringmaster.

Little monkeys running around with no direction.

I have been in a good deal of pain.

I had to get over the woe to find the woah...

lots of meditation,
isometric strength,
weights,
positioning,
breathing...
and what feels like still a long journey ahead of me.

I've heard that this has great processing potential.

I am excited to see the other side of this machine.

I love all my friends who have been checking in,
keeping me focused,
helping me go forward and loving me.

It's like I have magical,
psychic creatures around me
helping me elevate self and game.

Feel the pain,
say hi to it,
thank it for its service and be there with it...
all it wanted was to be seen, see it, feel it, love it,
be grateful for what that is showing me and let it ******* go.

I let it go. I am going to let it go again.

And again.
And a ******* gain.

Thank you for your existence. ♡

while the stock TING market rides high they be stuffing the tides down our throats like we're sock puppets

Solipsistic self saviour strategy still saves souls severed seemingly safely so solidarity sews, sees and secures several siblings ;)

After a while,
everything you're stressing about becomes insignificant.

There will be bigger, badder and (luckily) better.

You need these times to build upon yourself.

You need the negatives to develop.

Learn, grow, work, love and do.

Because that's all there is.

There will always be something to focus on for tomorrow,
and if you're focusing on yesterday - you're wasting valuable time. <3

I feel like I was painted with brushes stained with colors left behind by previous lovers.