I ate too much to cry this hard.

everything is disconnected
it all feels so strange
whenever I'm close to coming
I've found you already gone
sometimes i would bleed extra to make sure i still bled blood

I care not how many amphetamines you took
if you grit your teeth that hard you're gonna puke

On the inside I'm still that dumb kid who hugs animals too tight.

Could ADD just be a term we describe a growing amount of people who's consciousness has been fundamentally shaped from an early age from a heavy exposure to videogames, culture, computer usage, television and our educational system in tandem.

at least pickles are cheaper than flowers

sometimes I feel our love is best left to theory

hey can you touch me
in the bed
like you love me

do you wanna rub me
in the tub
like your ducky

wrap your arms in me
hold me tight please
I need you to show my soul
it's way back to my body

What is this, is this empathy?
I can feel your pain - it's all about me,
I don't want to be the one in equal pain,
When there is no experience that I have to gain,
From hearing your words, your story,
For the most part, I'd find it boring.
But you recant it with such fervour,
That in protest I dare not murmur,
The urgency in which I want it to halt,
Neither of us are at fault,
You want to connect, to tell me your past,
I'm really just hoping the tale does not last,
It hurts, these feels, I have for you,
Your wounds are old, but for me they are new.

more insulting as a presence,

it is all feeling,
the offensive defendant,

moving towards something,
perpetuated with intention,

miscalculate inertia,
the unfortunate ricochet,

the inner eye once turned.
she still sees nothing inside,

only I remain,

but it's still lonely.

You're starting now.

Actually, it's not a start or a stop,
it's a continuous progression.
against the continuously aging body you've been granted,

they say death isn't the end,
so, learn, my child, learn and grow,

figure your **** out, and apply what you know,

speak from the heart,
only be an upstart,
when you know that the flows got to go,

figure out what's important,
and how to keep going,

retain those you know are worth it,
discard those that do you only damage,

it is time, my love,
it's time to go,
you've been working so hard for this,
it shows,

you're worn and ragged,
weathered and torn,

by this point in time,
by life, you feel scorned

Everything you do now goes back into the universe,

Explore the concepts,
connect the dots,

Develop the ideas,
before your brain rots,

Each body you're given,
the collection of souls,

Keep perpetuating ideals,
only deity knows,

We're moving towards something huge,
dividing,
winding,
and expectantly wooed,

by the need to feel special,
that white picket fence,

Everyone is hungry for something they miss,
Find it,
don't get it,
keep yourself chasing,

Everyone knows horses are great for racing,

What's your carrot? What's your sign?

How can I capture, enrapture your mind?

You can't even talk for ten minutes before the disconnect occurs.

Was the effort it took worth what you gained from it?

1 Skin For Slaying
2 Mug-like accessories
3 Things that smell nice
4 Insulated soooocks!
5 Pairs of Boxers
6 Persians
7 My Little Ponies
8 Pokemon Badges
9 Types of Incense
10 Pack of Chocolates (that Kayla won't eat)
11 Star Wars Helmets
12 Pokemon

Hey baby, wanna keep me warm?

I can't seem to sleep if someone isn't beside me.

It's the witching hours, and their bewitching powers
I'm enraptured by bad decisions

I only like bumming smokes from friends
So I can be properly shamed

I am waiting for the butterflies

I'm waiting for when the time feels right

Only instinct knows how to guide my soul

Be friends with everyone you meet
You never know who you'll carpool home with

electrotango makes me sleepy
when I've been out all night

staring at screens
after so many faces

you must earn your keep here, girl
or you shall suffer the consequences

earn it, learn it, or you'll burn it all
yeah, you're more likely to burn it all

I am some of the iceberg.

Also, a super empty.

We have some sort of kink video
you've been interviewed by a previous tenant,
landlord's permission,

but my old leatherman wave could use

Expecting disillusionment
Is one way to keep happy
If you love watching it all fall apart

I think the thing is,
that you don't understand
that my life is a shitshow
- nothing goes to plan.

I've been at this for a while
I do not want of lovely homes.
frankly, you are wanting,
as is everyone,
one learns their need
when they have nothing
I know these paths,
I have tried them before,
I also know of the horrors,
that they have in store,
I know where it ends,
the fated outcome,
of all these twist turns + bends,
It's easier to assume,
you're another statistic,
if it's easy to logically,
plot your dot on the grid map,

It's like playing emotional madlibs
Filling in all the blanks with jabs
but smooth seas never made a skilled sailor
the sirens call sends you to the rocks

Even your shadow leaves you when you're in the darkness,
Turn, turn, turn, fight.
Sometimes there is no run.

I wanted to tell you a story
To spill it out all before you
So you could put it back together
in a way it would all make sense
In the way I know only you can do
I know you, you know me,
How can it be, do you see?
I know you do, it's so true
You speak to my soul, you do.

I do makes a smart idea that's what would be smart for
Heading to the store. Thank you, thank you!
'cept you're probably why I end up.
for one of five people must make the same offer is an awesome night.
I do not hesitate to clean my house for
YES! I wanna do fire!
Drumming has a Zombie
Such a ****. I'm in life
Come out to make my lazy **** around now.... and I wonder if any nerds dance partner at the first one is underway...
Anything from DIY electronics, coding, to move my side /
Pitch perfect is a deity replacement and Dead
Niiifty~ Who's the way to it.
Anyone wanna chill and destroying and it's a near constant audible facepalm by Chuck... I really can't wait to see
Seriously. I'm really impressed but thought I was a joke in poor Sailor.
You must be in a month
Artemis is over, what am I heard it's going to par.
I do say daily moustache rides?
Creative Problem Solving at 10am on ze tiny undead hits downtown core for
All I know selfsacrifice isn't always becoming a social entrepreneur.
I do on any idea that's what was asked of the above, or even extra good, actually.
story of my sleep in back in the background with
Holy man. She knew I'd say watch RuPaul's Drag queens?
To my head since it's better than taking a day to game?
Waves of the Outlet Powered Hour with it, it's cold out...

We started out being cheap,
but being impoverished eventually saved us...

It became a fad,
almost everything did.
Whoever had money,
would spend things to make themselves more connected to the singularity,
more tapped in.
We were all suffering from information addiction,
looking for our next fix.

Likes were a thing of the past,
we didn't just want digital affirmation anymore,
we needed to feel more powerful.

Of course this was just something we created in our mind because we saw others gaining this perceived 'power',
of course if you can,
in your mind,
research,
copy,
paste,
spellcheck
- everything a computer could do,
you would seem more capable of a human,

but in reality,
once you left your mind's energy up for just processing power,
you were nothing more than a machine...
some of us let our minds go entirely,
favouring searches and what is already known to fill in the blanks for our own exploratory research.

Mods weren't cheap.

But so many people were willing to pay for convenience.

- mods help us think,
they can schedule our lives.

- certain ones are just cognitive enhancers,
basically a microcomputer that knows which electrical impulses to fire in your brain for improved cognitive functions,
muscle controls or even releases of certain chemicals (serotonin)

- Others are just things like ocular mods (contact screens)

- Viruses are terrifying.

- New wave of humans who choose to be 'fed' - near braindead. Enabled to know made unknowing,
allowed to follow,
sometimes the struggle is necessary.

Reporter
main character either snaps back into reality or
overpower systems with willpower
she sees past the hiccups of self
and knows how to command the bots

break it down, robot girl,
make the demons dance for you,

Save me from your salvation.
I need not the writings of another to understand where divinity lies
In the heart and the souls of everyone.
When you feel good, and make others feel good you are doing good.
When you feel bad, and make others feel bad, you are doing bad.
Join together with voice and dance,
Celebrate, communicate and vibrate,
If we find the same wavelength
We'll truly find a new level.

the only time you're quick to talk to me
is when we talk gaming strategy,
I've been around these blocks before.
Pixels in abundance eventually bores.
I've played these lovegames
Oh, them dating sims
But in actuality no Japanese girl
could withstand all my whims,

Go ahead girl,
fill those cracks with gold,
maybe after all this tarnishing,
you'll become worth something,
when it cracks,
it's not always broken,
fix yourself,
mend yourself,
be more.

I've been filled to the brim for so long,
Watch out, don't shake the baby,
any sort of jostling will cause it all to spill,
do you really want to see the tears?
"It's going to swish and swash like that til it gets emptied" he said,
Oh darling, don't make waves, no,
No darling, don't make waves, oh.

I guess it's time for me to own up to my plans...
2014 is going to come with a lot of struggles,
intense change and hopefully some exciting accomplishments!

I'm excited to leave behind the last couple years,
which is mostly a post-secondary blurr.

I have battled illnesses, gained and lost a business and have many loose ends to tie up in these next four months.

Working through breakups and divorces,
challenges and adversity,
I have survived another year and it has taken the appropriate toll on my body.

I have met amazing souls,
learned much,
and tried to roll with the punches as well as one can.

My resolution is one of constant, directed force.

With being ever so near to my goal,
it is time to apply the knowledge I've gained.

Thanks to all who have stuck by me through my trials,
and those new to the tribulations.

This year,
I realized just how freakin' lucky I am to have what I have,
and now I need to learn what to do with this luck.

Let me put it to you this way
I'm not adverse to change
it's not a threat but a guarantee

I don't know where my brain is taking me,
I'm trapped within my skull,
This panic is surely breaking me,
And there is no where left to run

one a day until they all go away
that is how this mean girl plays
them hips, that swagger,
with ******* and moans,
drag-assing with pathetic groans
suspend not, your disbelief,
I don't need you to believe in me,
I'm tried, tested, true,
Been through the thick of it,
Came out, through and through,
I don't need no guff, no trouble,
No one standing in my way,
I want my adventure,
to say what I say.

I feel like you're searching for a way to criticize.

Who is that? Oh just another dreamboat sailing away...
The third time isn't always charming

Inside, she's screaming,
But it's only cowardice

I thought I saw the path
but I got all turned about
near the fork in the road
such a travesty, I'm lost

I know my strengths and weaknesses, I can articulate them to another, and I understand when people can't handle me, even if they love me to bits, I know how I want to feel loved and what I need to be happy and I will search for that.

let me talk to nautilus
what is in store?

You're an old dog
up to his old tricks
we should be learning something new

humans are so predictable
to love and loathing
the only way I know to live

taking it too far
gripping on to anything
trying to make it feel real again

you are losing me
ever so slowly
i like seeing
that you are truly human
you came here
the guise of other guys

Why am I wasting my life on sadness and pixels?

My warpaint of poo,
I bequeef upon you.

'cause I'm depressed and need change and I'm going to force myself through it both kicking and screaming.

Typing with thumbs; tiny touchscreens.

I have my own theory of strings,
I'm searching for things that resonate

Character is an exercise in humility,
Know yourself, the rhythm and flows

Are you on this wavelength?
What's your frequency?
White noise is everywhere.
but you cannot stop the signal.
the hertz, they hit so close to ohm.

I found you. Tried to ground you.
I knew we would feel sparks.
I seem so direct, the current is strong.

Oh baby,
You might be too close,
Yeah, you might be too close.
Had you not heard the word on the street?
Boys before you have all been beat.

By my words, my actions, and feats.
Nothing but a man can withstand me.

Can't you see the signs?
You're just another novice driver.
Drifting over established lines.

Stop. Yield. Go. Slow.

The road continues bending.
turn turn turn.
Three lefts might make it right.

But I feel so spun around.

outside squirrel kitty treat

Sorting Goods and Materials
Counselling and Nurturing
Protecting and Enforcing
Serving Others
Liasing and Networking
Teaching and Training
Professional Communicating
Advising and Consulting
Promoting and Selling
Interviewing
Designing
Writing
Performing and Entertainging

Race fast, safe car.
A Toyota's a Toyota
Racecar
stolen one lots

Was it a car or a cat I saw?
Was it a bar or a bat I saw?
A man, a plan, a canal: Panama.
A dog, a plan, a canal: Pagoda
A car, a man, a maraca.
Oh, cameras are macho.
So many dynamos!

Desserts, I stressed
No lemons, no melon.
No sir! Away! A papaya war is on.

Dr. Awkward!
No Madam, I'm Adam
Sir, I’m Iris.
Sir, I demand, I am a maid named Iris.
Ned, I am a maiden.
Bob Bob Bob

"Not New York" Roy went on.
Not so, Boston
A **** nixes *** in Tulsa.
Avid Diva
Party boobytrap.
Solo gigolos.
As I ***, sir, I see Pisa!
Amore, Roma.
Yawn a more Roman way.

Amy, must I jujitsu my ma?

Some men interpret nine memos.
"Do nine men interpret?" "Nine men," I nod.
*** aware era waxes
a **** tuba
test tube **** set
He did, eh?
I did, did I?
doom mood
rise to vote, sir
Art, name no tub time. Emit but one mantra.
Cigar? Toss it in a can. It is so tragic.
******, I’m mad!
Lager, sir, is regal.

mom
Ma is a madam, as I am.
dad
Pa's a sap.
hannah
Anna
Neil, an alien.
Oh no! Don **!
A lad named E. Mandala
Kay, a red ****, peeped under a yak.
La, Mr. O'Neill, lie normal.
Otto made Ned a motto.
Poor Dan is in a droop.

deified
reviver
radar
stats
redivider
testset
solos


Drab as a fool, aloof as a bard
Live not on Evil
Cain: a maniac
Live on evasions? No, I save no evil.
Eve, mad Adam, Eve!
Dennis, Eve saw Eden if as a fine dew, as Eve sinned.
Devil never even lived.
Do, O God, no evil deed! Live on! Do good!
Live, O Devil, revel ever! Live! Do evil!
Evil, a sin, is alive.
Evil did I dwell, lewd I did live.
Ma is as selfless as I am.
Name not one man.
O, stone, be not so.
Rot a renegade, wed a generator.

stack cats
taco cat
Senile felines.
So, cat tacos!
step on no pets
ten animals I slam into a net

Egad! An adage!
A relic, Odin. I'm a mini, docile Ra.
A peg at lovely Tsar - a style voltage, pa.
Are we not drawn onward, we few, drawn onward to new era?
Bombard a drab mob.
Borrow or Rob?
No, it never propagates if I set a gap or prevention
We few,
We panic in a pew,
We sew,
Ye boil! I obey!

In words, drown I.Revered now, I live on. O did I do no evil, I wonder, ever?
Is it I? It is I!
I'm am a fool; aloof am I.
Now I won.
“***… ***…” I murmur.