Whoa-den skoden, manifested reality - bolden.
More time with the fore-time, when's the next moontime?

The future is debt on the choices we make now.
When you meet yourself then, better make yourself proud.

I am learning patience through irritations,

to love in the face of fear and hate,

how to breathe and speak

when choked up with emotion,

how to survive and be well

when I feel like I am dying

and doubled over in pain,

and how to face reality

when everything feels so surreal.

Once you struggle through the toughest moments,

the average seems simple.

I am still here.

...I called in help for re-locating my shoulders....
my body has been on the edge of fasting a lot.

Popping myofacial and muscle knots...
bruising appears,
skin dries and becomes scaly...

got help legit holding it in place while I snake writhed it closer to intended positioning.

Bawled cause the pain is so searing and real.

"What was that?"
"I let it go."

Sometimes we feel most comfortable slouched over into a little protected ball...
our body's give and curl and build up the strength where we couldn't.

For years I was propped up, tensed to ****...
and my body tried to come to my rescue while I shifted and forgot about the beautiful clustering of bits.

A circus of cells with no ringmaster.

Little monkeys running around with no direction.

I have been in a good deal of pain.

I had to get over the woe to find the woah...

lots of meditation,
isometric strength,
weights,
positioning,
breathing...
and what feels like still a long journey ahead of me.

I've heard that this has great processing potential.

I am excited to see the other side of this machine.

I love all my friends who have been checking in,
keeping me focused,
helping me go forward and loving me.

It's like I have magical,
psychic creatures around me
helping me elevate self and game.

Feel the pain,
say hi to it,
thank it for its service and be there with it...
all it wanted was to be seen, see it, feel it, love it,
be grateful for what that is showing me and let it ******* go.

I let it go. I am going to let it go again.

And again.
And a ******* gain.

Thank you for your existence. ♡

After a while,
everything you're stressing about becomes insignificant.

There will be bigger, badder and (luckily) better.

You need these times to build upon yourself.

You need the negatives to develop.

Learn, grow, work, love and do.

Because that's all there is.

There will always be something to focus on for tomorrow,
and if you're focusing on yesterday - you're wasting valuable time. <3

I think it is wizardry.

I've been grounding,
breathing up like a tree reaching out,
hitting white light,
drawing it back into self,
tensing up - redistributing self as shadow holding point, acknowledging fullness,
finding error,
releasing - then I grab the knot and I hold it for a minimum of 10 seconds,
thank it for it's service but let it know I'm trying to rebuild and repeat.

I can hear the wind against the window.
The blinds are low and beneath my breath I whisper, "No."
I doubt I will have many reasons to acknowledge anything outside my tower when the snow holds the ground as it's dominion.

I dislike the cold.
I thought outside was supposed to get frigid - not me.

while the stock TING market rides high they be stuffing the tides down our throats like we're sock puppets