After a while,
everything you're stressing about becomes insignificant.

There will be bigger, badder and (luckily) better.

You need these times to build upon yourself.

You need the negatives to develop.

Learn, grow, work, love and do.

Because that's all there is.

There will always be something to focus on for tomorrow,
and if you're focusing on yesterday - you're wasting valuable time. <3

I think it is wizardry.

I've been grounding,
breathing up like a tree reaching out,
hitting white light,
drawing it back into self,
tensing up - redistributing self as shadow holding point, acknowledging fullness,
finding error,
releasing - then I grab the knot and I hold it for a minimum of 10 seconds,
thank it for it's service but let it know I'm trying to rebuild and repeat.

I can hear the wind against the window.
The blinds are low and beneath my breath I whisper, "No."
I doubt I will have many reasons to acknowledge anything outside my tower when the snow holds the ground as it's dominion.

I dislike the cold.
I thought outside was supposed to get frigid - not me.

while the stock TING market rides high they be stuffing the tides down our throats like we're sock puppets

My version of this is the ole 6 to 1...
If I catch myself saying something negative about myself I have to compliment sandwich the eff out of myself.
For instance, today...
"I can't believe you slept pretty much the whole day away..."
Is a negative I woke up with, so, adding a minimum of 6 positive buffers to keep my mind aligned to success.
"You deserved the rest for all the stress."
"You are likely needed a longer sleep since you deny yourself it regularly."
"Yesterday you did two loads of dishes, rearranged furniture, worked on a bunch of projects and connected with many people."
"You are in the process of resetting subluxed shoulderblades."
"Ehlers Danlos Syndrome makes you into an athlete who needs to recoup energy."
"It is Saturday, have a great weekend, so what you can, but don't ever stop."
"Rest time and active work time are valued the same."
"If I get up now and start the day, there's still time."
♡
Turns out, if you don't want to have to think about how to "fix" the one negative... you start being more positive generally.
And that is a kindness we all deserve.
Also, its scientifically proven to be more effective than criticism. So, are you being mean to yourself cause you actually want to get stuff done or because you're addicted to thinking you're a ****** human?
You're a great human.
Thanks for trying to be better. ♡

Why dont you just do what you can't so I don't have to see you suffer? Says the lover to the other.

Who told you you were supposed to be happy, without pain, or suffering?
The ego lies.
Suffer with me, purposely.
These are the wars we choose to fight so the wars don't get fought against us or inside us.
New story for me? I enjoy this pain now. I choose this pain. I thought I didnt love myself, that's why I never could take care of myself... nah.
I loved myself too much that I thought I was above this "life", that I "deserved better"
I choose this battle, now. I am here for it. Hi.