Look at the ocean
A cataclysmic overturn
Of the love you once gave me
Retiring your gaze
Never making sense
Hence your cold shoulders
Touching her warm neck
An object so dearly needed
To forget my existence

They calm me
Little sounds running off the ground
Running in my ear
Ringing my darkest thoughts
Giving me a break
From the unsufferable noise
That fills my day
Just like water running down your chin
And wetting your clothes
Because you forgot
To keep your head above the water.

Screaming for help won’t do you any good darling
They said to just comply
To rule your mind out of the equation
To manifest a fairer trade
Yet there you are again
Whenever the clock hits one thirty three AM
You know it’s time to go
To let go
To feel your thoughts reach out for air
And begin the process
That they won’t ever know
Веcause you are an arrow amongst these animes
But you will still not go
You will unwire
And pretend
For the life you were given does not want to be taken away
Just yet.

Sitting next to you
Transported by the wheels of time
Rage from a distance
Anticipation to see you again some time
Never chasing nostalgia
Gut wrenching memories
Eyeing me up and down
Rubbing me against your neck
Shamelessly resurfacing

I wish I could explain
The longing for words to come out
I wish I could explain
The unforgivable wait for my thoughts to become tangible
I wish I could explain
The magnitude of my predicament
I wish I could write it out for you
I wish I could scream it at the top of my lungs
With no mistake, no regret, no stutter
I wish you could hear me
I wish you could sense the tidy speed of this process
I long for a coherence between these parts of myself
The mind, the fingers, the tongue
The expressions and sincere meaning
Behind these useless words
The extension to which they bend the horizon upside down
The spiral they project onto the metaphysical
The waves they create within me
The chaos they chase

those are memories
folded in four
getting washed away with time
by the emerald water

i hope to be around
on the days you feel happy
on the days you don’t feel so happy anymore
on those sunset picnic days
and those dancing under the rain days too
i hope to be around
in your future
close to you
close to your heart
the truth unfolds
and i’m standing there
watching you smiling from far away
i hope to be around
on your darkest days
and darkest nights
to help you remember the brighter ones