Breathing but dead inside
So my feelings tend to hide
No remorse so no need to cry
And he wonders why
Cause you lied
Not once but three times
But yet I forgave you deep inside
To turn around to a surprise
That wasn’t mine
She’s pregnant with your child inside
Three months of lies
But I was five months by your side
So I lied And cried all night
Said I’m just fine
Didn’t want to lose
What suppose to be mine
Instead I lost my mind
My pride that I put to the side
My heart that shattered in time
My reason to be alive
My joy deep from inside
So yea, I’m really dead inside

I pray that you rise
To look me in my eyes
Just in the perfect time
Even tho you aren’t mine
We are two of a kind
You breathe air in me
So I can feel alive
Your smile is like sunshine
And I am the vine
Your kisses can
Warm my insides
Your arms are my safe place
Cause you protect me all the time
Dear jr. I wish you the best
At this thing called life
Your mommy’s baby
So I would given you my last dime
And all my time
Know that I love you
And you will be my soft spot for all time.

This is my last poem
So I will make it great
I wished I could’ve seen
Look on your face
When you found me
Unconscious and no breath to take
For this a simple reason
I couldn’t been saved
I drowned in stress and depression
With is no one to blame
So don’t put rip on anything
Cause it was meant this way
And to my friends
I’m sorry that I let you down
I wasn’t always happy when I was around
And to my parents
I should’ve let you in
And to my brothers and sisters
I wasn’t strong as you think
I’m sorry, but you aren’t to be blamed.

While I lost it
Barely hearing your voice
No longer seeing your name
Guessing where did all of it change
We aren’t the same
Did you chose someone else
Am I to blame?
She getting all the attention
That I once craved
Mixed emotions
Cause you don’t know what to say
I don’t wanna play this game
Can’t you just say
That you don’t feel this way
But every morning calling me
Baby, sweetie and beautiful
And turn around to say
Relationship aren’t for me
Then why continue to play this game
When you know my heart is going to break
Man I haven’t been the same
Yet you still haven’t noticed
Not one thing
Maybe you should call for a change
Instead texting one time a day
Why you play this game?