If I was a Woman
I would have an better understanding of the word fear,
The fear of him having a bit too much beer,
The fear of not being respected in my career,
The fear of being hurt by the one who calls me dear,
The fear that one day I'll just disappear,
The fear that I'll never reappear,
The fear that everytime I leave home my death is near,
The fear that I could get ***** by anyone of my peer,
The fear that these Boys still think all I can be is a cashier,
The fear that he might hit me so hard it will be severe,
The fear of dying a horrible death like being stabbed with a spear,
The fear of not knowing which male to trust in this green and blue sphere,
The fear of not knowing weither I'll be alive to say happy new year,


To feel butterflies in my stomach for him just to watch him leave the second I feel a baby kick
To love him with all my heart and play second place to his side chick,
To praise him like a god just because he has a ****,
To get up clean and cook for him even though I'm sick
To find out that him loving me was all just a trick
To get me in bed and give it to him quick,

The pain of explaining to my child that we made you,
But I'll raise you,
That painful period in my life where a bleed physically but even when that's over I'm still in pain and bleed emotionally because of what boys do to people of my kind,
We can't even trust the kind Boys who pray for us because they could easily turn into the kind of dogs who prey on us,

But I'm a Boy,
I can always put myself in a Woman's shoes but they'll always feel comfortable I can take them off at anytime,
Can't even call us men anymore as long us we hurt Women or even watch other Boys hurt them,
We will never be men we will always stay Boys.


~Miles Poetry