Everything i write about is from the past
all the hurt and pain has already passed
look forward to tomorrow live for the present
those dark days i shall always feel its presence

the biggest part of my heart has been taken away from me,
its left a space so vast and scarily empty,
left my father so emotionally drained,
he's just lost his wife and oldest friend, we will make it because you showed us how to stay strong even in the roughest days,
i want my mam back is what I'm trying to say.
i love you, you made me who i am today,
you now reside in paradise,
but save me a place when its my time stay,
mam.... i think about you everyday.

Recently I've been fighting depression,
I learned it's as dangerous of all known weapons,
It made me question everything i am,
It made me feel less of a man,
self inflicted doubts of feeling worthless,
I let myself cry just so it hurts less
I've been to the bottom before but could always see the top,
But this time i went straight through and i didn't stop,
i was alone floating in a space of hurt,

i couldn't see what i was fighting
But i felt how deep they cut.

i have inner power
it keeps me together in my darkest hours.
never afraid to feel that thought
i only write about my saddest thoughts.
now i can see the sun light shining through on the darkest days
luckily those rain drops can clear all those tears away.
it's ok i have a smile today
learned that's just the way the universe plays.
making me stronger and wiser every day.
i never forget but let that stress just float away
I've found myself again time to live for the day

so if you read this SMILE :) everything is going to be ok.

i had a lucid dream last night
it felt so real i hated the sight
it created tears i could not fight
i guess being alone is now my life
close my heart turn off that light
now afraid to close my eyes
incase i see those sights

the servitude of masters is something i will never abide by.
they serve up lies upon lies while looking in your eyes and then watch you die slow.
the system is designed so we believe we're winning.
take our humanity and our rights then they get upset when we try living.
then they make us fight for what we should already naturally have.
don't tell me I'm overreacting
when the proof is there in there actions.
see the devil when you remove there masks
then they just look at you and laugh.