So much of it in the world

The lonliness of a writer
an artist
a musician

These people many speak about
but are never heard

Life is but a timeline
merely getting things done
checking off the list
until their sun doesn't come

longing...
for another
for a purpose
for the chance to be heard

longing
until one day,
they do find another

Another
who brightens their day
who slows the timeline
who for once, listens
who finally ends the longing

Another
who makes the sun shine longer
who branches the timeline
who understands
who finds you

To whom can I confess a secret?
“It depends on what you tell them,” they say.
They’re scared I might be sent away.
Resenting depression; heart of regret,
If I shut up, would they forget?
Would it sit in their minds and slowly decay?
Look what you’ve done, is there no other way?
You’ve given them everything to misinterpret.

Now they look away, like I have three eyes on my head.
They whisper and they judge.
At home I lie in dread,
I am confined to this bed.
With your mistake, I will hold a grudge.
They avoid me because of that thing you said.

(Words were given to me by classmates:
A  Vivid
B  Incredible
C  Rapid
D  Blank
E  Indubitably
F  Over)

The sight so vivid,
the feeling is incredible.
Thumping, thrashing, moshing; rapid.
All adrenaline, minds are blank.
All will have stories to tell, indubitably.
Time stops; never ending, never over.

Guitarist flicks his pick over
our heads; strobe lights so vivid.
People injure for that pick, indubitably.
Though to catch it would be incredible.
Chaos for a piece of plastic that's blank.
The crowd's desperation; movements are rapid.

Heavy metal; headbanging rapid.
Vortex as they swing their heads over.
Some are dizzy; expressions blank.
Light reflects of swishing hair; movements are vivid.
How the band maintains the rhythm is incredible.
Long night for everyone, indubitably.

The chaos will never end, indubitably.
People still moshing, everything is rapid.
Being in the center; scary and incredible.
I hope this will never be over.
Lights flashing, making everything vivid.
Flashing and thrashing; nothing is blank.

Begin a new song, backdrop is blank.
Something awesome, indubitably.
New song starts, loud and vivid.
Musicians play more rapid.
No one wants it to be over.
Lyrics speak, it's incredible.

This night is incredible!
No thoughts form, my mind is blank.
But dreadfully, it is over.
Traffic out is awful, indubitably.
My heart is still beating so rapid.
The memories are oh, so vivid.

I wish it wasn't over, the lights were so vivid!
My energy is blank, but my mind is still rapid.
The show was incredible; I'll go again, indubitably.

Outside the window, everything is dark
The sky so clear, I made a wish on a star
That on this brilliant night
Sailing through the sky's infinity
And in my heart's silence,
that tonight I am not alone

Because, you see, when I'm alone
I will go to someplace dark
and I will sit in silence;
a universe without a star
my lonliness reaching infinity
through an endless night

You tell me you're in my heart so at night,
I don't ever have to be alone
And you'll love me longer than infinity
I no longer have to fear the dark
it is diluted by your brightest star
as you gaze at me amazed in complete silence

It really isn't a bad thing; the silence,
it puts my heart to rest at night
knowing you're there, my guiding star
and with your love, I am never alone
You have saved me from the dark
and our happiness will beat infinity

But we will never truly understand infinity
Until that day comes that brings silence
and we are both left in the dark
But where we'll go, there will never be a night
A place where no one is alone
A place brighter than any star

We'll meet He who made every star
And then we'll know the true infinity
Where we'll never be apart, never alone
We'll join in the celebration, with no silence
We will never have to sleep, there is no night
And we will never remember the dark

Tonight I wished on that star, no words only silence
Until we know infinity, we dream through the long night
Never again are we alone, never again will I be afraid of the dark

I'm awesome at this game.
it's more like Star SLAUGHTER.
This is how i gain my fame.
This is no game for your daughter.

Luke skywalker cries,
his mother is dead.
In his arms, his father dies.
I laugh with no dread.

The Emperor is so cool,
with all the suffering and death.
He has every right to rule.
I should probably get off this ****.

the color in the sky
is                  very blue
and       so are you
and i don't know
why // why do you cry
with        such a sad hue
is        this tragedy
true? //  said I

You're in my heart,
to never be apart

Someday soon, we'll be leaving
Just us ***; no more pain, no more grieving

We may bounce from place to place,
and there may be times where I don't see you,
but when I gaze out the windows of our temporary base,
to the Lord, I owe my gratitude

Working for the money to build our dream home;
huge picture windows to take in the view
A happy home where our kids are free to roam
Trees, lakes, and mountains; a scenery brand-new

Our warm, cozy cabin illuminated by candle light
Over the ground, a blanket of white

My own art room, walls painted soft yellow
Soul inside is aching, my imagination bellows

Sanity

                                                        ­                                                                *­is in* the *eye

                                                    
                                                         of the *beholder

did it make you happy? did it fill the void?
that you had to take those lives,
and then take your own?
what was the purpose?
if you were leaving the earth,
why did you take them with you?
why couldn't you have left by yourself?
why did you need to take them?
what did you accomplish?

all those little lives...

twenty lives
twenty smiles
twenty futures
twenty that never went home

no more recess

and six brave guardians that fought the battle and lost


what is it with these massacres? is it just me or are they getting worse?


A prayer to those affected, and God Bless the victims and their families.

People like to believe wishes are something magic
why though? To escape from something tragic?
Well I do, too.

Making a wish comforts one's secrets
why though? Why are wishes used?
To me, it was something that sorts my past regrets
My wishes now are for you; my one, my muse

Nothing may come of it, but I do it anyway
I wish your hope, your faith; do not decay
Your optimism, your kindness, your vast intelligence;
you use to cure the pain that you sense

And that pain, you see,
it belongs to me
as I watch you writhe in agony

My wishes for you are that you do not hurt
That when you dream of me, you don't dream of dirt

You don't have to miss me because I'm right here
Find the ring you slid on my finger, no fear
There I am; in those things you hold dear
Squeezing it in your palm now, I see tears

I can feel it, your pain so great...
I want so badly to hold you, but there's no passing this gate...

So I have but one request;

Wish like I do, by the candle's dim light
On every star tonight

And while you do, not to cry
As you go on in life, not to forget
It was not your fault that I have died
And to remember, that it's not your time yet

Wish for when you catch the time reading 11:11

That we'll meet each other again in God's Heaven...

Drifting alone, floating in the candle light
Somewhere you're here, with me in the night

You're with me, but not
When I'm with you again, my pain will rot

Until the next day, but for now we depart
This night is mine, to dream of us
And I feel you, taking a space in my heart
A space saved for you, as it gathered dust

Peace is mine tonight, a gift
I can feel your lips on mine, so swift

My worries are away
I'm only waiting for the day

The day, when we can be
But the night, the peace; is my time for me

And I use it to dream of you
You make me feel so different, so new


But here I am, drifting alone in the candle light
By myself, but not alone tonight

Evil buried deep inside
waiting to burst, but for now, to hide

Heart raging, blood racing
Brain surging, stomach aching

Something pushing at the nails
eyes turn cold as stone
Teeth gritting, sprouting fangs
Hatred pulsing through my veins

Heat of rage, trapped in this cage

Let it out, bleed it out!
Can't you see what it's about?

Blind, you're blind!
I'm losing my mind!

Let me run, let me go!
Maybe then you'll finally know

Maybe then I'll be free
from this hatred that's rotting me