Your Pretty gorgeous beautiful and more
Thinking about if you believe this is such a chore
Do you believe these compliments? I wander
Playing this in my head casts my brain asunder
Really really then why
Why do you hit me with snark remarks thinking it will fly
I hear you I hear you loud and laughing
I thought maybe your mind would change
But my appearance doesn't rearrange
And I am hiding the torment even more
Crying inside is such a bore
This is why my life has become such a chore

Was I a liar
Was I telling the truth
Trying to get higher
I almost got hit the ruff
I heard you talking
Lies about me
Did you really think my ears
And my eyes couldn't see
It hurt knowing I was all alone
Not even strong enough to grab a phone
I had no calls to make
Knowing that my head started to ache
She came to me is my deepest despair
She told me I should not lose one hair
Against me they were that was obvious now
Now what should I do?
And the last question
And How?

I know how you feel
When you say things you reveal
Exactly how you feel
About me how you don't like what you see
I don't like it either you don't have to tell me
Are you trying to put me in pain
I can tell that you want me to drown in the rain
In front of everyone as if it's a show
I will not let these feeling go
These feelings of be hurt betrayed and more
These feelings that stop life from being such a bore
I can't believe you would say such a thing
Everytime I remember it my head starts to  ring
But then again I already knew
How you felt was true
How I felt was blue
But that obviously meant nothing to you

I want to live of course I do
Do I want to wake up each morning just to tie my shoe?
Of course not I want to do more
I don't want my life to stay such a bore
Do I want to get up just to sleep?
Do I want to just stand up out of my bed and internally weep?
I ask this question to myself on different days
Every time it comes to my head the answer delays
Smiling? Am I happy? Laughing? am I sad?
Let's not act like my acting is bad
I want to live see every day by
I want to watch, watch time fly
me maybe I should cry
maybe I should smile more
Maybe I shouldn't see things as such a bore
Maybe I could go day by day showing emotions
As my real emotions stay drowned in different potions
Sounds good act like planned
Maybe then everything won't be so bland

Staring at guilt as I sigh
If I stay with guilt I can never fly
I have this conscience in my head
Being with Guilt is something I oh so Dread
I can no longer stand it looking at it's face
Always trying to make me feel disgrace
No more no longer
With out guilt I will be much stronger
I have to get rid of it sooner than later
I can no longer be it's personal cater
If I jump on it now there's no going back
I have to wait for the perfect time to attack
I wait and wait looking at it's face
For goodness sake this is not a race
I'll **** it I'll **** it while laughing too
Once it is gone I will no longer feel blue
I jump on guilt as fast as I can
It tries to fight back can no longer stand
I stab I slit I choke it and smother
Now I can no longer hear a stutter
I hit and hit and maybe do more
Without guilt my life won't be such a bore
Now I wonder will the blood stop coming
While I look at this stream I can't stop humming
My life awaits isn't that nice
With guilt gone I no longer have to pay such a big price
Now it's gone no more guilt
Now my head won't tilt
Chin up looking high
I see the sun in the sky
Yes Now Now Now I can finally fly

The could neither be in the West, South, or East I clutch
I could not be in these places without yearning for your touch
So soft so fluffy tethered in passion
When I am feeling you I don't have to worry about fashion
You give me comfort a piece of mind
You are something I always hate leaving behind
Your silence is something I treasure so
You have a beautiful evening glow
I can laugh, smile, scream, cry
When I am with you, I always breathe a sigh
Of relief because you take away my grief
This poem is to you my lovely bed
You are the one and only place I can rest my head