one sad cold night
a girl sat in her chair
picked up a gun
as she ran her fingers through her hair
She sat and cried as she thought
everything that's happened
has all been my fault
She said if I was gone
this would all be better
and she told him
"I love you now more than ever"
She said "trust me
this is for the best
you will see
cause after I'm gone
no more fighting, you'll be free"
She grabbed a bullet
an put it in the gun
said, "I love you so much
but now I have to run"
She said "I'm sorry I can't take this no more.
I've let down so many people
I wish I could go back to before"
She hung up the phone
and pulled the trigger
looked down at her chest
as the pain grew bigger
her eyes filled with tears
they started to pour
as soon as her family ran in
She fell to the floor

Just a cut
Just a scratch
"What's that mark?"
"It was the cat."
Just an excuse
"What's with all the bracelets?"
"Just fashion. Why?"
Just a tear
Just a scream
"Why were you crying?"
"Just a bad dream."

I talked to you
About all the mixed up stuff
Kept away in my head

You were understanding
And helpful
And it was great
And if felt so much better than usual

You helped me so much
When I thought you would get mad
But you didn't
And I'm so thankful for everything you do

What do you call it when all you feel is pain?
When your loved ones look at you and all you feel is shame?
When your tired of living and playing this game?
When you know your life is meaningless and your the only one to blame?
What do you call it when the hurt is in your soul?
When you smile and laugh but know it's all a show?
When you feel you have hit your all time low?
When nothing makes you happy and the darkness around you grows?
What do you call it when you feel so alone?
When you're in your house but it doesn't feel like home?
When you look back in your life and every choice you've made now seems wrong?
When the wait to die seems like it's too long?

Another cut
Another tear
Another reminder
That no one is here