We want people to think we live normal lives, hustling to hide the obvious fuckery that god implemented in our paths.

Blamed myself for not caring
Until I realized
You never cared
And then I became
Free

You won't get it
Not because it is saved
For someone special
But the warmest *****
Steaming wet
Unlike a mind    
Built of regrets
I'm no paradox
It will all make sense
Where our story begins
And where you end
It's a dumpster of men
I can't recall
What was your name
Were you even there
In me
So empty of memory
Passenger, please be polite
You were just hallucinating
That I want you

Whoever invented them
Probably didn't know the mess
The involvement of anxiety and stress
These words can provoke
When saying them for the first time
As if it was a crime
To say them earlier then expected
Making people feel mostly resentment
It's unnecessary
How "I love u" became so scary
To the point of saying nothing at all,
Hiding emotions behind thick walls
They are clouded with the seriousness of commitment
Or a fear that they will make a lover more distant
What if I just wanted to whisper them in your ear
Without making it such a great deal
What if the misconception around these words
Will soon disappear