First, I see him walk through the door
He smiles, but it's not the same anymore
From across the room, our eyes meet
And I wonder if he'll ever see
The shattered pieces in my eyes
Fragments of a dream that died
But as my voice calls out his name
I begin to wonder what really changed.

How did I fool myself? I let myself go
Some place that never existed
And I should have never held on so hard
To what was never mine to start with.

Ask him how he's been these days
Nod and smile at everything he says
Think back to a sweeter past
All my hopes that couldn't last
And I almost laugh at what I did
How I lost myself bit by bit
But I'd give anything to go back
Yeah, I'd give anything to go back.

How did I fool myself? I let myself go
Some place that never existed
And I should have never held on so hard
To what was never mine to start with.

Soon it's time for me to go
I leave the room, and he doesn't follow
And I hate myself for my last try
To get him to at least say goodbye.
But he won't even glance my way
Won't see how much I want to stay
I'll take the pain of living the lie
If it's the only way to feel alive.

How did I fool myself? I let myself go
Some place that never existed
And I should have never held on so hard
To what was never mine to start with.

I push my notebook aside for a study break
Find the song that you love on my phone.
Turn up the volume as high as it goes
Let the sweet melody take me back home.

Close my eyes and hear your voice in my head
Let the lyrics bring memories to fall into
When the song stops it hurts to open my eyes
But I hit replay to feel closer to you.

Oh, I remember some lifetimes ago
You walked smiling through the old battered door.
And my heart lifted, but then I didn't know
You would one day be my favorite hello
Though you won't know I'll miss you so
Can I get a goodbye when I go?

I look back at some photos from the past
Your old T-shirts, baggy shorts, messy hair
Now you've grown up into a real heartbreaker
But the boy I first loved is still there.

Oh, I remember just a summer ago
You made me laugh before my tears overflowed
And my heart lifted, but then I didn't know
You were my warmth when I felt cold and alone
You never know how far your sweetness goes
Maybe that's the reason why I love you so.

Oh my sweetheart
You are the only one I turn to
To give me hope for all that's good and true.
The songs you gave me
Broke my heart to listen through
But I don't care; I felt closer to you.

Disclaimer: I don't own the song "Little Do You Know" by Alex and Sierra. All rights go to them for this poem. I simply used their song and changed up some of the words because this song is special to me and the person this poem is about. (If you haven't heard this song I highly recommend btw).

Little do you know how much you truly mean to me
Little do you know I'm so attached to our memories.
Little do you know I feel my heart break piece by piece
Little do you know I
Can't stand saying goodbye.

Underneath it all, I've learned how to hide the ache inside
I've been counting down the days until you're by my side
I've loved you for so long but these feelings are so hard to hide
Little do you know I
Can't stand saying goodbye.

I'll wait, I'll wait
I'll love you even if it leads to pain
I'll wait
Just promise me you'll never change
I'll wait
I promise we can stay the same
So let me hold you tight.

Little do you know you're my last thought before I fall asleep
Little do you know your smile is my favorite sight to see
Little do you know my time with you is so bittersweet
Little do you know I
I've loved you for all this time.

Just wait, oh wait
I love you and I'm not afraid
Just wait
As long as you can let me stay
Everything will be all right.

I'll wait, I'll wait
I'll love you even if it leads to pain
I'll wait
Just promise me you'll never change
Just wait
I promise we can stay the same
So let me hold you tight.

All will be all right.
As long as you stay my light.

Cause little do you know I
I've loved you for all this time.

https://genius.com/Alex-and-sierra-little-do-you-know-lyrics

I love the warmth of your fingertips
When you place your hand over mine.
I love the way your big, bright smile
Can light up a room like sunshine.

I love how your quick, sharp mind
Holds your ambition and brilliancy.
I love how your heart is filled
With sweetness and sensitivity.

I love how you say what I need to hear
Without even having to try.
I love how you're the only one
Who can make me laugh when I want to cry.

I love how you're never scared to be yourself
With the quiet confidence I've always wished for
I love the way you can make my whole day
Just by walking through the door.

I love the way you're one of the few
Who can effortlessly understand me
I love that when I’m with you
There’s nowhere I’d rather be.

Standing in my doorway, his face shining in delight
A smirking promise that we'll have so much fun tonight.
The noise, the speed, all a dark, crazy blur
His hands in my hair, his arms holding me so tight.

A quiet morning after, the softness in a new day
He's still here, promising me he'll always stay.
I see in his eyes, the girl I could never be
But he thinks, wrongly, that I am beautiful this way.

But your voice is the memory I can't leave behind.
When I close my eyes, your face comes to mind
Yours is the touch that binds me like a drug
Yours is the love of the most twisted, evil kind.

Hiding tears as I watch from the sidelines
A dark shadow to your world of sunshine
Take comfort in knowing that justice was served
For by breaking one heart, I also shattered mine.

The silvery glow of gentle moonlight
Slices through the ink-black skies
Turning a dark world softly bright
As I pray for sleep this lonely night
For dreams that allow a look into your eyes.

Maybe days or months or years have gone
But I can still feel the warmth of your skin
Remember your sweetness during every love song
See your bright smile from dusk to dawn
Hear your voice that calms my fears within

The softness of your fingers curled over mine
The glow from the memories you left behind
Stay in my heart, as my own, small sunshine
Even blind  hope can become a lifeline
Hope for you by my side, instead of on my mind.

Darling, there you are--
My eyes find you from afar.
Beneath a halo of sunlight
Eyes so soft, and smile so bright.
The cool balm in summer's blistering heat
The fruit with an aftertaste, so very sweet.
The quilt quieting the soul to a dreamless sleep
As outside, the world rages with winter's weep.
My love, my heart fills to my throat.
As it journeys to these times so very remote.
To keep the glow from your presence with me
I slip quietly away--let the tears fall where no one will see.