Engine running
Fingers interlocked
Hearts beating
She gazes at me with the sweetest expression
And I feel an everlasting silence from my depression

Her laughter is music
Her smile lights the night
Every moment with her feels so right
I’ve found my reason, my guiding light
Conversing through our eyes
Occasional touches of skin
I’m one lucky guy
To have her be the girl I win

A kiss on my cheek
A finger tracing her cheek
I don’t think I can wait a week
But I mustn’t let my heart grow weak
She’s my morning sun,
My evening star,
I’ll cherish her always, no matter how far.
With her, I’ve found love, like a dream come true,
A journey we’ll take, just us two
Soon a goodbye to being single
And a welcome to a perfect world
Stepping forward with a jingle
And having such a lovely girl

Drifting
Waiting
Just for something to happen
But it never comes
I’m alone
I wait for my life to come back into my hands
But all it ever does is die
I don’t know how long I can do this
Fighting through pain
Stuck in an endless loop
I look for a way out
And I’m met with circles
Warping me back, forcing me to go through the same things
When did things get hard
When did time become something uncontrollable
And why do I have nothing to cling to, keeping me going

Rippling,
Reflecting my reddish eyes,
The puddle grows with each passing tear
My eyes unfocus,
The shocking pain spreading across my body,
Bringing old memories of simpler times,
People lost along the path,
Including myself
Sinking to the ground,
My black tie floats on the puddle
I watch my one true friend drive past,
Knowing she’s crying in there,
And wishing I could be there for her
But all I am is one of those tears,
Dripping,
Splattering,
Splashing on the surface
But beneath,
Bonds are lost,
My life shattered with it
If only the shards were sharp enough to pierce my skull,
And not just my tortured heart

I need you,
I cry for you
I yell for you
I beg for you
But you don’t respond

I’ve waited for you
I’ve listened to you
I’ve worked with you
I’ve been with you
But you act as if we haven’t

It feels like yesterday,
When those blue eyes couldn’t part from mine
When those hands were mine to hold
When those lips spoke of love to only me

Now,
She says these words to someone else
She thinks this way about someone else
She gives those eyes to someone else

Yet here I am,
Feeling sparks whenever you’re near
Wondering if you feel them too
Reaching for your heart once more
Yearning the love we once had
The love I still hold within me

Answer me this,
Will you ever be mine?

Day by day it beats,
Day by day it aches,
And day by day it breaks a little more,
Holding onto hope of a brighter future that never comes

He waits for a sign,
A person to tell him where to go,
Or for the final moment of his life,
But alas,
Nothing comes of it

Time continues moving,
Patiently destroying the tortured souls,
Amused by the cries of the ******

I wish for good days,
I live through bad days,
I work through the day,
I cry through the night,
Hoping for better days

Sitting in different locations,
I can’t stop thinking of what’s different compared to last time
What used to be possible dates for me and my girlfriend while sitting in Euro history,
My girl sipping on her iced coffee in band class behind me,
Sitting by the stairs waiting for her to pick me up,
Waking up and texting good morning,
Has changed to a painful pit while I sit,
An attachment to a stranger I used to care for in band,
Crying on the stairs,
Waking up without any notifications or a person on my Lock Screen,
And an eternal sense of regret and shame
I promised to never hurt her
I double pinky promised to never leave her this year
Yet I’ve done both of these things
One with a terrifying choice I shouldn’t have even considered doing,
And the other forced as a consequence of my actions
I couldn’t tell you why I ran my mouth that day in early December,
But I can tell you I deserve worse than what I got in mid January
I could’ve sworn to you her and I were meant to last
And although I still wish it to be true,
I’m doing this for you
Whether I draw my last breath by the end of this month,
Or I live on and find a way to live without the most perfect girl in the world,
I choose to listen to your painful words
I’m not supposed to leave,
You told me you’ll miss me,
But you want me to go,
And if it’ll make you happy I can’t argue with that
You’ll forever be in my heart,
My green baby girl,
But the next time you see me,
My eyes won't be inviting you to look at them
You don't get to be friends with someone you hurt
Same goes for me
I’m so sorry for what I did,
But you couldn’t know how eager I am to go numb

Her lips press against my neck,
sending a rush through me,
warm and electric,
a feeling that doesn’t stop at my skin
but travels deeper,
into a place I didn’t know could feel this alive
I watch her blink,
the slow closing of her eyes
like a curtain falling on everything but us
And when they open,
those beautiful eyes find me,
searching my face,
as if she’s memorizing the lines of who I am
My fingers can’t help themselves
They trace the shape of her lips,
soft and inviting,
then glide over her cheeks,
smooth and warm under my touch.
My thumb lingers by her ear,
circling gently, like it belongs there
And in that moment, I can’t stop thinking:
she’s the most beautiful person I’ve ever seen
Every part of me feels her grow and shrink on each breath
My mind is caught up in her presence,
my heart spilling over with so much love,
it feels almost too big for me to hold
But I’d give it all to her anyway,
again and again,
just to stay in this moment a little longer