I can’t sleep after what happened yesterday. I said things that I may have thought at the moment, but they aren’t how I feel, it was the nerves talking. I’m sorry to be such a pain and piece of work, you shouldn’t have to deal with me in this state, regardless of the situation. I’m glad we got to fix the night, and have yet another truthful conversation. But I think I just wanted more, as I always do, and three hours of talking in a day didn’t feel like enough. Had you not come back though, I would be in tears, where instead I’m peacefully taking in the anxious pain left over from a long day. Maybe it’s something to consider, getting better at distance, being okay with weird situations. But I also know I missed you too much to want anything but you here right now in every moment. So don’t go. For a day, for a few hours, for even a minute. Just stay here with me. It’s gonna be tough sometimes, but we always work through it, we understand and don’t need to argue over anything. Sometimes I wonder, why I stayed through it all, no matter how hard it got. I realize now more than ever, it’s because I’m so in love with you, my heart bleeds more for you than it ever will for anyone else, even myself. But I want it to for you. I want anything, everything, as long as it comes with you. Stay.
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