The harder things get-
The harder I’ll hold on to you.
And the furthest I’ll go-
Is an eternity-
Of the strongest love ever recorded.
Reports say-
Our love couldn’t be recorded-
It was immeasurable.

I don’t want you to go
So I’m writing to you here

We said goodnight
We used our old emoji
I missed our old emoji
I miss you

The past few hours have been a dream
Imagining life in the far future with you
It didn’t feel like a wish
It felt like the probable outcome
And I for one
Can’t wait for what’s in store for us

Writing poetry in bed, hiding our screens
Not because we won’t see it later
But because we don’t want to spoil the surprise

Talking you down when you’re upset
Supporting you when you’re sad
Laughing with you when we’re happy
I never thought I’d find these things
But I’ve found them with you

I don’t want to lose the moments we have making music
I don’t want you to let go of who you are because it’s not what everyone sees
I see you
And I want to be the person encouraging you to stay you
The true Eliza I fell in love with
The Eliza I am in love with-
Will always be in love with

I miss you
But that’s alright
I’m just reminiscing-
Our old future memories

I don’t care about you-
In a way a friend does-
Or even a sibling-
I care about you in a way one would care about an extension of themselves.

I don’t like you-
In the way most exes would say they did-
Or even the way a boyfriend would-
I like you as if you’re the best thing I could ever find and nothing could change my mind.

I don’t think about you-
The way a child thinks about candy-
Or to the extent a mother thinks about her child-
I think about you in every thought, and with each my feelings deepen.

I don’t talk about you-
Like you hurt me-
Or you’re something gone far away-
I talk about you as if anything else isn’t worth mentioning when you’re an option.

I don’t love you-
More than anyone else-
Or to a depressing degree-
I just would only say the phrase to you, because it’s only true for you, and I never knew what love was until I met you.

“Her eyes are gorgeous”
A real thought flashed in an instant,
As she looked at me,
Seeming eager to be partners.

I wonder,
“Does the hot sophomore want anything to do with me?”
But it’s not like I have a choice.

“Seannn” she says,
Like it’s a secret password to my heart,
And it worked.
I was open from then on.

And here we stand,
Back to back,
Me slowly pressing my back into yours,
Wondering if you notice.
And you step on my foot time to time,
Making me overthink,
“Is this really happening”
“Am I being stupid”
“What do I say”

And so I do the only thing I know how to.
I laugh.
And it makes you laugh.
And your laugh,
Sent me into spirals,
Resulting in lots of down the field stairs,
And who would’ve thought,
Love poems.

I got reminded a few days ago,
Of how life used to be.
My mom asked why I was grinning at my phone.
It reminded me,
Of when that happened with you.

Every day felt like a dream.
I was with you,
I felt understood,
But at the same time shocked.
How could a girl so beautiful just know me.
And why would she ever consider settling for me?

You taught me self value.
Even though I try to teach you it every day,
You taught me it for myself,
Showed me what I really am.
I guess in a way,
I owe it back to you.
But what I tell you,
Is the truth,
From the core of my fiery Purple Heart,
With golden embers just for you to feel.

I miss being problemless,
Innocent,
Dumb.
But what I never want to miss,
And would trade it for these any day,
Is missing you.
Because missing you,
Is missing my heart,
My reason to breathe.

We may have started,
Just two young souls,
Searching for one another.
But it’s more like one soul now,
Two bodies inseparable,
Two minds unparalleled.

Before I ever felt love,
There was purple.
Purple was the night we started talking,
Purple was each message we sent,
Purple was the infinite care you provided,
Purple was the time we had to talk.

Purple became my life.
Before I could think,
I was purple at home,
Purple with friends,
Purple at school,
Purple on a snow day,
Purple with you.

I gave up video games,
They weren’t purple.
Anything not purple no longer mattered.
Music wasn’t purple,
But I thought about purple,
Every note emphasized with purple.

And purple.
Baby,
Purple is you.
It was just my favorite color.
I never imagined it’d be the heart I sent 💜,
The contact color of my lover,
The color I see when I think of love.

But here we are,
In a world that doesn’t accept us.
But I see it,
Do you?
The purple light?
Girl,
It’s shining,
And it’s you.

Something feels missing
Right now - it’s you
And in a few hours
Probably all my energy
Then in the morning
I’ll lose the calm of rest

I wish I could stay asleep
My mouth doesn’t hurt when I do
My brain imagines a world without surgery
And my heart puts you in every moment
It’s a nice touch
Just makes me go crazy waking up
Feels like that world is missing

I miss messages!
All the goofy things we’d send
I miss snap
The poetry, the drawings, the funny filters
Now it’s just insta
I don’t even use insta
But you’re worth it
So I use it for you

Yknow what’s missing
The ideal world
I don’t think everyone’s is the same
But I think ours is
And two is much better than one
So I can promise one thing
Whatever’s missing
I’m gonna make sure it isn’t missing forever