Ocean deep
Brightening smiles with every blink
Shining gold in a pitch black room
The sun yearns to be as bright as you

Someday
When the stars align
They’ll make you too hot to resist
Accenting your every feature
That’s when you’ll see
The you I fell for

Just remember the good
If anything
Because I didn’t lie
You’re worth a thousand doses of pain
A million poems
A billion words

So it won’t be me
That *****

It won’t be you
That’s heartbreaking

Doesn’t mean anything
When you know you’re golden
Shining over the rest of us

I’m dumb
I shouldn’t have let us forget
We’re hurting people
It’s not in our nature to have it good
Dreams are nice
And I’ll hold on to that
But reality is scary
It never remains

Again
I get it
And I’m sorry
Obviously I didn’t mean that
The initial anger has been built up
Every complaint I walked you through
Knowing if you chose me
Which was impossible
Things had to be this way
I guess

It hurts to hurt for someone
While they hurt
And they wouldn’t if it was you

So yeah
To put it all together
I love you
And there’s nothing that can stop it
There’s also one person who can start it
And it can’t be done
I know
I shouldn’t have let you convince me
I knew it wouldn’t happen

And by the way
No shot you mentioned me saying I won’t let you leave easily
The only reason I do is FOR you

But I’m not mad
I care
Way too ******* much
I just hurt
We all do
That’s life
I guess

Forget
Because I’m not worth it
Because everyone is telling you to
Because if you do I won’t have to look into your eyes and wish it was different
I’m sick
I can’t get these thoughts out of my head
I’m so lost
It’s just dumb at this point
The fact I was so obsessed
And am
But will never be heard

And obviously you heard me
But what’s the point
What can ya do when your whole world says no
My world said yes
I wish that was enough

I was venting
In all honesty
I have no one to talk to
I’m alone yet again
It’s fine
I knew it was hard, and believe what you want, I’m just hurt that every time I open up it gets thrown in my face
It’s not your fault obviously
You could’ve done something, but it wouldn’t be worth the risk
Forget me
I’m just a lost cause
In every reality
Except the one I wish was true

“Bien”
Like I’m even close to okay

My Spanish test is next Thursday
But you wouldn’t know
You don’t know me
Not anymore

I think your pinkies will ******* fall off