She said all men are dogs and every time we speak she hear barking.
Now her perceptions skewed and the worth of a man to her is equivalent to garbage.
Poor troublesome diva in a mirror she sees royalty on earth.
A coping mechanism that enabled her to exist through the hurt.
Only 11 years old when she lost her virginity.
Mom’s worked three jobs and her step dad never worked any.
Worked the Liquor store mohawk vodak and Seagram’s gin.
He occasionally touched the pipe and every other night he slid in.
Barely at her menstrual and baby girl's mental is scarred.
17 years old now and no emotions her demeanor is hard.
Her only outlet is *** - two to three guys in a row, as they ****** they applaud.
Standing tall laying on her back is her plight to liberation in the school yard.
25 years now five kids and now she’s a full time trick.
Been having *** before she was bleeding might as well get paid for it.
Serving John after John, the act of *** no longer amusing.
Chopped her hair off now in love with her girlfriend to her kids shes confusing.
33 years old mature now seen hell and been back.
Developed a conscious for her people now she dawns a head wrap.
Around the positive brother's she stay because in their world she’s the focus.
But deep down despises them curses them like Moses with locus.
On the pharoah whispers spells at every man flies an arrow.
Out for blood will lie cheat, steal and leave lives in peril.
Any man who crosses her path.
In her eyes there no good.
Her existence a black widow sacrificing the lives of black men from the hood...

I can't lie it was fun but I'm glad to finally say good bye.
Trapped in your web day in and day out, I don't know how I thought that was fly.
In a trance I danced to the beat of your drum.
Spent countless hours chasing you until the night submitted to the sun. The feeling you gave me was undeniable, only to you was I pliable. Spending all my time with a companion I would've never thought to be viable.
Internally racing but facing a feeling I'd never known better.
You flowed through my veins and hugged me daily like words cling on to letters.
The city was ours you was my main thing.
Everything I owned had a price tag if I needed to feel you sing.
My interracial love interest so white, soft and so pure.
What the hell was I thinking falling so hard for your lure.
You used me and played me.
Into something I wasn't I turned.
I thank God for his graces catching me because I would've never learned.
No regrets or bitterness torwards you the relief I feel won't allow me to cry. I'm just grateful for my broken leash and a chance to finally say goodbye!

What if.......
What if this world doesn't exist.
What if we were all a figment of someone's imagination.
What if we were all like mice in a wheel going no where fast.
What if we were already nowhere.
What if no where was everywhere and no one realized because we were going no where too fast.
What if we're getting somewhere.
What if everything of substance meant nothing.
What if that degree that brought you from nothing to something turned out to really have done nothing.
What if these words meant something.
What if these words meant nothing.
What if you took a moment to really think.
What if thinking was outlawed, we'd all be nowhere doing nothing.
What if all day you held your smart phone.
What if the time you spent on the web equated to your self-worth.
What if we opened our eyes.
What if we stayed blind.
What if we could see but only blindly.
What if we kept our eye's closed because we seen how far we've come.
What if cell phone's were dumb and people were smart.
What if if was a fifth of whiskey.
What if this was never written....