I worry day and night about you because of the things you tell me, I worry that one day I'm going to get a call that you're not here anymore.

My mind is debating so many things all the time, it debates time, it debates life, it debates what I should do, it debates what's right or wrong, it debates if i'm loosing my mind, it debates who is right for me to be around, it debates what I want, it debates all the time, and all I want is this for this Debating Mind to go away.

It hurts how you speak to me sometimes because you make me feel like i'm not wanted you make me feel as if i'm only here for your wants not needs.
you say you need me and you say what you think I want to hear but really in my mind I wonder if you really want me or use me.

I hate how you think we argue when we talk.
I hate how you yell at me when I try and be there for you.
I hate how you make me feel like I'm dumb all the time.
I hate that That you won't try the simplest of things.
I hate how it feels like it's just one sided all the time.
I hate when something's wrong with me all you have to say is I'm sorry.
I hate that my friend seems to care more about me than you do sometimes.
Those are the things I hate that you do.

I have two best friends of mine.
They are both different.
one I can see in person.
one I can play games with online.
one lives close.
one lives states away.
one I've known for 12 years.
one I've known for 2 years.
one knows everything.
one is learning about me.
one is a he.
one is a she.
but they both care about me.