The love I want is where the girl jumps and gives me a hug where I almost fall because she didn't see me for a long time.
The love I want is being able to be me and not having to worry.
The love I want is where I can sit and cry while being held.
The love I want is where I'm not used.
The love I want is the girl is obsessed with me.
The love I want is being able to play games with the girl that loves me.
The love I want is that kind of love.

All I want to do is cry when I think about you.
All I want to do is cry when I think about the life I really want to have.
All I want to do is cry when I realize I can't have what I want.
All I want to do is cry because I'm struggling to hide how I feel.
All I want to do is cry realizing I can't have my happy ending like I want.

I Lay in my dark room and read poems.
I Lay and let my cries out and let myself crumble knowing nobody can hear me.
I Lay and wonder to myself if I'm really happy with how my life is.
I Lay and think, "maybe my light isn't as bright as I thought maybe the light within me is actually dim?"

I Lay Here in my room in the dark.
I Lay here with the only light from my phone.
I Lay here, wondering and thinking "what if?"

There are wars happening within my mind and my heart.
A war of love within my heart.
A war of thoughts within my mind.
The Wars seem to becoming more and more occurring.
I can't help to ponder on the thought of which side of the wars will win in the end.

I Wonder What Life Could Have Been like if I hadn't been messed up at the young age of 5.
I Wonder What Life Could Have Been Like if I hadn't dated girls I dated.
I Wonder What Life Could Have Been Like if I didn't meet my friends.
I Wonder What Life Could Have Been Like if I always lived here.
I Wonder What Life Could Have Been Like if I had confidence.
I Wonder What Life Could Have Been Like if I didn't have ones around me.

That's what I Wonder What Life Could Have Been Like.