Was I made to be alone...

My friends all left me because they hate me... tho I do have a girlfriend I still feel alone...
I feel like one day she will leave me too just like the others...
Then I'll move out and be on my own...
Then I will be alone...
I've had people in my life come and go...

Was I made to be alone?......

Last night I had a dream, a dream I hadn't had in a long time, a dream where I was laying under the starry sky, a dream where my life played like a movie, a dream that reminded me of how I used to be, a dream where I used to think poorly of people and the world, a dream where at the end of the movie I saw him again... The version of me that I thought was gone forever... The version of me with a wide smile and has that certain look in his eyes... A look of something that terrifies me...

A dream where the other me tries to break free.........

I believe that some people come in and out of your life for a reason,
I believe God brings you certain people to show you things or to teach you something,
I believe that some people that leave you're life will enter it again at some point because it's already happening to me.

A time will come when I fall down to my knees in front of his throne,
If it's a long time or a short time from now,
A time will come and I'll ask him why did everything happen the way it did.

I may be mad at you,
But I don't hate you,
I may be mad at you,
But I won't disrespect you or talk down on you,
I may be mad at you,
But I still wish we could be friends,
I may be mad at you,
but I would never say something like what you said to my family about me,
I may be mad at you...


But in the end I still forgive you.

You know I thought highly of you once,
Of how you kept pushing forward,
How you tried to be nice to everyone even when you didn't want too,
How smart you are,
I thought highly of you because of how nice you were to me,
I thought so highly of you I would have stood up for you anytime of day and had your back no matter what you did,
But I must have been delusional thinking those things and trusting you.

I hope you enjoy lying,
I hope you enjoy making my own family think horrible of me,
I hope you enjoy causing me to have a fight with my mom and sister,
I hope you enjoy what you did,
I hope you enjoy knowing you caused me to have a mental breakdown because of what you said.