And so it came to pass, the words I wrote out on November 6, 2015 to form such a heartbreaking piece came to pass.
I am a lover without a lover.....took for granted the one that loved me because I was taken over with greed.
Never in a million years thinking he would leave....now I watch him love another...

I am not the only one to blame for there are secrets that he's hidden even when I came clean.

I am a lover without a lover but one day soon, the right one will come along & make my heart swoon.

No lies, no secrets, no shame and no schemes.
Waiting patiently on him, I've already made the change.

Whether it be the lover of my past renewed & completely changed or a lover all new to me, I pray he is sent by God himself & we'd be destined to be...

May his arrival be swift, his departure delayed, his love eternal & true.
May he never hurt me or take me for granted & means it with every breath when he says "I love you".
May my insecurities die along with my paranoid mind, that every man that comes into my life is full of betrayal, deception & lies.

May we grow old together, happy because it's true that we're meant to be. May we last stronger and longer than our last, may he always be faithful and honest to me...

& I the same with him until death do us part.

I am a lover without a lover, but not for long for I am a lover without a lover with a waiting heart...

Never settle for the "intellectually inferior" term, you're better than that.
Never fall victim to the excuse of, "because you're black"
Who's to say that your sophisticated & perspicacious approach to life should be ignored because of the color of your skin?
It's the small minded stereotypes of society that should motivate you to procure the win.
I only wish that when it came to this situation, some were as stubborn & reluctant as me. But history has chained their way of thinking & stung them with society's mockery.
Never settle for social inequality or the disparaging jabs because of your nationality or the color of your skin.
Be a proud, successful, sagacious, astute, intellectually advanced being overdosed with melanin.

From the moment we start breathing, we start dying. One breath closer to death, one second closer to fate.
There's so much more to life than just meeting expectations, so much more than just a simple race.

When you watch the sun rise, you're sure of it.
Do you think once that your eyes are deceiving you?
No, because you have faith in such little things.
°When you hear your name being called & you're sure of it, do you think your ears are deceiving you?
No, because you have faith in such little things.
When you sit upon a rock, you have faith that it will not split beneathe you...
So tell me, where has your faith gone?
The faith you had in such little things, where has it gone when the one who doesn't sleep day or night asks for an ample supply of it?
Has your humanity swallowed your soul, leaving you an empty vessel, foolishly wasting a precious substance such as faith on things of no value.
What has corrupted a beautiful rose to grow thorns is what has corrupted you to have such golden faith in everything but the one who deserves it.

A lover without a lover
Because I was stuck between the two
Our love was rich & smooth
But so was my greed for another you
So I found another to love
At the same time, not letting you free
Now I'm stuck between you two
& my conscience won't let me be.
Karma is watching & her lesson will make me want no other...
The lesson has been taught
Now, I am a lover without a lover.

Too many are loving without feeling.
Too many are speaking without thinking.
All easy things in life don't last & all that lasts aren't easy to come by...
It's the basics of the universe, to love and lost, to laugh & cry.