Playing politics with my life.
Some family say I am just like Dad, and that they love that. Same face, voice, and humor.
Some family says I am nothing like him, and that he is an evil *******, manipulative.
Some say I am going to wind up in jail and that I don't love anybody.
Some say I am kindhearted and loving.
Someone is lying. Everyone is lying.
I don't trust anybody. Least of all me.

I deserve better.
Your choices have made us unfurled.
Put what you have to say in a letter,
And send it far out in the world.
I will find it in the years to come,
When we haven't spoken for a while.
You'll tell yourself I read some
But I'll just throw it aside with a smile.

Stepdad

Spray from hose.
Shocking cold.
Dog shakes it off.
Mantra repeats with
Another blast
You don't love your mother.
No more hose.
No more cold water.
Only cold inside.