A series of unwanted emotions arose
in the unending wonders of my complex head.  
Whispers of loneliness echoing unrelentingly,
haunting my supposed-to-be stable self.
Yet here I am, being engulfed by my own cravings I  used to ignore.
The more I tried to pacify it, the more it intensifies.
Oh dear heart, how gullible you are with all the simple things.
Safeguard yourself, for being vulnerable again is dangerous for you,
Yet here I am, I allowed a stranger to wrecked my calmed state.
A hurricane of panic attacks wreak havoc in my sanctuary
Uncertainty scares me, it really does.
But his kind of care, is too tempting, I feel like succumbing to it.
But no, it might just be another heartbreak, declining the vague offer of my gullible side.
Oh love, why does it look so easy on others, but not on me.
I want to feel it too, but ******* are everywhere too.