The night sky was bathed
In brightness tonight
The moon was full
It watched me as I ran
Hair flowing
Down the driveway
Seems to be my normal lately
All I do is run
From my problems
From my house
From everything
I run beneath the flashlight
Of the moon
As if it’s brightness
Will envelope my darkness

I am so angry at you
Furious
How could you leave me
The last thing you said
Was that you would talk to me
Tomorrow
That was over a month ago
You said you wanted to die
And I would have to be okay
When you left
But how could I
Look at me now
Falling apart at the seams
I’m so angry at you
I went back and reread every word of yours
Our last conversation
Every video watched it again
What if I never get to talk to you again
And the last thing I told you was a lie
I told you I would talk to you tomorrow
And I didn’t
Because you left
And it’s my fault
I distanced myself
I let us grow apart
I made the divide
You suffered in silence
As I tried to heal
Selfishly
Apparently
I told you I wouldn’t be okay
I told you I would fall apart
You didn’t believe me
Well look at me now
I’m so angry at you
I miss you
Our three months
Knowing each other
Would have been in a few days
But you’ve been gone a month
I can’t
Do
This
Anymore
I’m
Too
Angry
This
Wasnt
Fair

“My car crash was intentional.”
“I’ve never told anyone that.”

And my heart sank
And I froze
And I stared at the words
Pain filled my head

How could you try to leave
When I see how wonderful
How hard you try
How misunderstood

I love you
I’m glad it failed
I’m glad you are alive
Because you are the reason

Im still breathing

Midnight
One
Two
Three
In the morning
On my roof
Half moon
Cold air
Blanket on my legs
Tears
Hot
Down my face
Heaviness
In my chest

My brother
Says he's worried
I’m okay cant you see
You don’t have to wait up for me
I’ll be home
Before they know im gone
It’s not like
They notice im there
Anyway

And suddenly
It’s one AM
and I’m not tired
But before
I was asleep by ten
Now I'm
Home by midnight

You say you love me
How can you possibly

You don’t hit
Scream or yell

Love doesnt look like this
Sweet and caring

How can it
Does this mean
No one has ever loved

Me before?