I ran
From my problems
They came back
But I didn’t
In a way
I’m still trapped
In that night
Cowered in a corner
Arms over my head
“I’m sorry”
“I’m sorry”
But you wouldn’t listen
Couldn’t
I ran
But my problems followed
They came back
I came back

Everything in my head
Words left unsaid
That quiet dying feeling
Not caring about anything
Because I want to die anyway

Adjusting to a new kind of normal
One where everything is tense
Trust is long gone
And I don’t know who I am anymore
I don’t have the mental capacity
For things that used to be easy
Like helping people
Like eating
Like sleeping
This new normal is different
But it was necessary

One day
One day I’ll feel normal again
A new normal
Without pain
But with feeling
Peace
Like that night
Sitting in the middle of the road
Moon half concealed by clouds
Feeling nothing
But everything
I don’t want that
But I do
I need that serene feeling
Of being alone
While simultaneously
Hearing their voices drifting
One day
One day soon
I’ll feel alright