Why did you say you loved me earlier that day
If you knew you didn't anymore
Why did you make me hopeful
If you had no hope left in us
Why did you become so intimate with me
Even if you knew you were going to leave
Why did you break me
If you weren't going to try to put me back together again
I will cling onto the idea of you forever
I love you

I don't really understand why you left
But its not my choice to make
My intentions were clear as daylight
You're the one that stepped off the path
But I'm alone now
You were my home, my everything
But I guess it's not the same for you
I still love you
I'll always love you
Even if you shattered me when you said we're over
I will always have a soft spot for you
You'll always be my love
Even if we're not together

Yes, you are the reason I wake up in the morning
And the reason I get out of bed
The reason I try
But you are also the reason why I cry so somberly every time I hear a love song
Because I wish our love was as effortless, as clean as the sweet notes played over the song I listen to over and over again as the tears stream over my face
Because I know our love will never be as sweet and as effortless as theirs

Consuming every inch of my existence
Every fiber of my being
Chipping away at every bone in my body
It's never enough
Never skinny enough,
Never pretty enough,
Never enough
I will devour myself from the inside out
And still consume the troubles of others
My mind will stay ravenous
While my body grows hollow

I will always remember the first time your hands touched my skin
Static spewed from your finger tips
And I never felt more at home
Your arms held me tightly
With a child-like love that I haven't experienced in an extremely long time
Your smile makes the sun look like a dim lightbulb flickering in a victorian manor, your eyes glow like satin
You make me happier than I've ever been <3

I look at the menu.
Numbers flood my mind.
The feeling of running on empty consumes every inch of my being.
A faint, boney pattern stains my upper body.
A beautiful image slowly turns into a spindly sketch of an unrecognizable void with protruding ribs and a face lined with salty tears.
A void, consuming the person I used to know