Ideas create effortlessly, beautifully, as easily they fester and feed in flesh.
Spun from thoughts weave, intertwining to intention so rapidly almost impossible believing it not contagious. Suffocatingly diseased. Warmth of home infected perhaps only by the very presence, victim of your touch, the insatiable thirst for endings. Consumed whole by mind
As if will of human survival was a careless defeated program, disintegrating towards unattainable abstract. The idea to man make this natural instinct not unlike attempts of creating new life only with bare hands.
You are that of neverending rainfall that's falling and falling over. descending not with inherent direction or desire to be anything greater, other than to fall.
Cw, my personal experience with suicidal ideation and how I felt that interacted with the things around me.