Lumin Guerrero

Lumin Guerrero 1d

They say I shouldn’t worry about romantic desires,
and that I have to love myself.
Well, sure,
I do love myself.

I love the way my hair bounces when I spin
I love how soft my face is after I use the special wash
I love it when I wear the really cool clothes my parents hate
I love when I get overly happy over the little things
I love running my hand through faded scars from struggles past
and thinking
Hell yeah, I’m strong for that.

But is it wrong to want to hear those things said from another?

I lay under the warmth of plushies and duvet
wrapping my arms around myself,
and imagining that they were my lover’s.

I dress myself in the mornings
and wish that there was someone to call me
— not just a pretty person, I know that,
— but their pretty person.

And I want to call them my
Moonshine
Starlight
Love.

Because, yeah, I love myself,
But I want to love something more

And I want someone else to
Love me too.

It’s like making a piece of art you’re happy about. You feel amazing about it, you know the process it took to get to the product and you’re really proud of yourself. But you don’t want to keep it to yourself, you want to share it with others, because it’s too beautiful to keep to yourself.

Inspired by Thirty Nine’s “Don’t say you love me”
My Love Mine All Mine - Cavetown (Mitski cover)

#love #lovesick #selflove #romance

Lumin Guerrero 2d

As I waited for the vending machine

I watched 3 little boys try to buy oreos.

One was trying to shove a gummy bear into a coin slot
Another kneeled on the ground with dollar bills splayed in front of him
The other was trying - and failing - to type out the corresponding numbers for the oreos.

They yelled and laughed and pushed at each other in a beautifully obnoxious sort of way.

A boy puts in a dollar and out comes a coin - but no cookie packet.
They're confused, so they run off to get a woman, mom, to help.

I take the chance to step forward and buy my own peanut butter cookie.
As well as step back and love my child self.

Lumin Guerrero 2d

Reader's habit

Whenever I start a new story
I skip to the very last page
and read the very last paragraph
before flipping back to the beginning
and deciding whether or not its worth commiting to.

I wish I could do the same with you.

Lumin Guerrero 3d

Dandelion

Pretty little flower
Growing as you please

Pretty yellow flower
Pesky little ****

Roses, orchids, hydrangea
Are gifted and adored

Pretty Dandelion
They stomp tug cut

But pretty fluffy white
Remember this clear

When the hopeful children blow
Wishes are the greatest gift

Lumin Guerrero 3d

First Academic Honors awarded to...

They rather gaze upon my wall of sullen blue certificates
And black and white report cards

Over the wall of art, creation, life
And the expanse that is I.

… in recognition for Earning A’s in all Core STEM and Humanities Classes and no C’s in all classes for the entire quarter.

Lumin Guerrero 4d

< |love me too|3

They say I shouldn’t worry about romantic desires,
and that I have to love myself.
Well, sure,
I do love myself.

I love the way my hair bounces when I spin
I love how soft my face is after I use the special wash
I love it when I wear the really cool clothes my parents hate
I love when I get overly happy over the little things
I love running my hand through faded scars from struggles past
and thinking
Hell yeah, I’m strong for that.

But is it wrong to want to hear those things said from another?

I lay under the warmth of plushies and duvet
wrapping my arms around myself,
and imagining that they were my lover’s.

I dress myself in the mornings
and wish that there was someone to call me
— not just a pretty person, I know that,
— but their pretty person.

And I want to call them my
Moonshine
Starlight
Love.

Because, yeah, I love myself,
But I want to love something more

And I want someone else to
Love me too.

It’s like making a piece of art you’re happy about. You feel amazing about it, you know the process it took to get to the product and you’re really proud of yourself. But you don’t want to keep it to yourself, you want to share it with others, because it’s too beautiful to keep to yourself.

My Love Mine All Mine - Cavetown (Mitski cover)

#lovesick

Lumin Guerrero 5d

?

I’m not quite sure
What I’m doing here

What does it matter?
Why do I matter?

How is this the river mouth of my tears?
Are these the consequences of my actions?

What would it be like if things were different?
Why couldn’t things be different?

What does it matter?
Why do I matter?

Do I matter?
Why?

I’m not complaining, really
Just questioning.