Brutally scarred, and barely standing,
Here I am and here I will stand,
Until I know
It's true,
Something I'll never want to believe,
And never begin to accept,
Acceptance is earned,
And this my darling,
Is not worthy of acceptance
Nor forgiveness,
I'll never look at you the same,
And I'll always hide behind the pain,
You'll never sketch your way into my life again,
Not with out fair warning of your arrival,
And by the time you arrive,
I'll have already said
Goodbye

Spread thin on this wide brown bed,
My head buried under a mountain  of beige
Colored pillow cases, the dark figure
of my thoughts paces .. and I think
if I hold my breath for just a little longer
perhaps this feeling of you
will grow into something stronger
and my illusion of what you were will live on
And I’ll find a way to be strong,
Not spread thin on this big brown bed
That’s to empty without your memories
To keep me warm, just a heated laptop
With a moaning fan, nothing like the open arms
Of a handsome man with a tongue that’s
To quick for his own good,
I wish you would stop saying what you said,
Or would have said what you meant.
Now I’m spent and spread to thin on this
Empty brown bed.
And I’m drowning in beige pillow cases
I’ll choke to death long before I can catch my breath,
I hate what you do to me, but do it again,
I’m waiting here spread to thin on this lovely big brown bed.