somewhere in the distance
I have flatlined
and i hear wind in the trees outside
I'm lying here and all i can think
is that I'm in a coma (or dead)
somewhere -
sometime else
I hope i get help

It is hard to measure progress
when you can't tell if where you are
is any different than where you've always been
when it all feels the same
but you have an inkling
a tugging at the truth
that something
has changed
and it always
has been for good
It is in the winter that all dies
to become life again
new life in the spring

There is always a likelihood of calamity in relationships.
The candle is coming to the middle.

If we are not feeding our minds with something rich,
will they starve, not starve for lack of food,
but for lack of nutrients?

And here i am, sitting in a baptist church
the night after i let myself go
the picture of the in-between

But she says she'd swear
if i wasn't so religious
I came to church high
all the time (not this one i didn't)
I am not high.
So, there must be some substance to what she sees.
I am at peace.
I woke up talking to Jesus and thinking of his love,
but in the form he has given me,
for another, for others

I have been talking to god even though I've been gone.

The moon is behind the clouds in the morning
but it is still there
still round
still looks like the moon.

The rogue agent ***** me. I killed her.
The father was an impostor.
The president ate supper with me
and thanked me for holding him hostage at gunpoint
with his own gun, which apparently
had been empty (or held six duds)
The brother, well i three him down the stairs when
her dad looked my way.
I la in a sewer drain
listening to my ipod (extra battery)
while the incriminating files downloaded
over 24 hours- shock. Oh wait, it's 91%