love is pain

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my heart broke
when you told me that you tried to take you life

you'r so pure and delicate
the world doesn't deserve you

no one does

i can only give you the same advice regurgitated and spat out so many times

its up to you to choose whether or not you want to use it

the dull haze of my lamp lit the roof just enough for me to see myself silhouetted across the wall.
I look at this dark, soulless shadow and think about life and death

and how it has never really made sense to me.

how can a human, a soul, something that was once living, all of a sudden be gone from the face of the earth.

i feel like an ant,

finding its way through a world to big for its little lost body

help me;

I feel so broken and completely numb.

I've forgotten what it is like to feel happy

to feel normal...

to feel anything but utterly empty

searching for help in a room with closed doors and bolted shut windows