I always wonder about you
Believe me it’s true
I always wonder about you
Even knowing the truth

I know you don’t care
Believe me it’s not fair
I always think what if
What if you did care

But if you cared
Drugs wouldn’t have even been an option
But if you cared
Visits could have been a motion

There was no motion though
No visits, no calls, nothing
But if you cared
You would have turned nothing into something

I’ve came to accept that you don’t care
I still believe that this isn’t fair
You get to decide to make some motion
But I’m like a failing boat floating in the ocean
I just sit back and wait to sink
While you can cause so much commotion

I have no say
All I can do is pray
In or out
Believe me either way I’ll be alright
Don’t come in and out though
Because then it becomes hard to fight

I’m falling apart
More and more as days go bye
I’m trying to win this battle
But at the moments it’s tied
Today I’m struggling pretty bad
Hopefully tomorrow i won’t be as sad
With each and every day
I feel like I have less and less say
I can’t control what’s going on in my head
Sometimes I hope that tomorrow I’ll be dead
The only thing I’m living on is hope
Hope that I can learn to cope