I feel like I am trapped,
Inside my head,
As if I'm watching everything,
That happens,
But have absolutely no,
Control over any of it,
The lies just keep coming,
The smiles just keep flashing,
And no sees through it,

Help me please,
I am prisoner in my own body,
I'm trying to signal to you,
Trying to show you how broken 
I am,
I wave to you with my eyes,
But you see nothing,
You don't hear the cry for help 
Hidden within my words,
Please help me escape,
From the prison of myself.

YOU DON'T GET IT!!!
I DIDN'T WANT TO HURT YOU!!!
I DIDN'T WANT TO BREAK YOUR TRUST!!
I DIDN'T WANT TO RUIN YOUR LIFE!
HOW DID I DO ALL THAT SIMPLY BY FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU?
I'M SORRY THAT I COULDN'T BE THE ONLY THING KEEPING YOU ALIVE!
I'M SORRY I COULDN'T GO ON BEING WHAT YOU NEEDED WHILE IT KILLED ME!
I STILL LOVE YOU!
BUT I DECIDED IT WAS BEST TO LET GO!

was i wrong...

Time is running out,
The sun is going down,
I tell you I love you,
But is it too late now?

Is it possible,
For these golden rays,
To mend that which has been broken,
And forgive my foolish ways?