Welcome back the the asylum
This cold grey place where nothing dwells
Except my clock of cogs and gears
That counts out my numbered years

Peaceful as it may be here
Still I'm tempted to crawl out
Into the black forest beyond
To probe whatever mysteries
Await the outward bound

Somewhere back there in the thicket
Winding underbrush
There is an answer to everything
Kept quite hidden and hushed

But as I sit and contemplate
Who planted the first seed
The tendril vines are growing
Choking out the trees
Beyond which
A charred and ruined landscape
Is all there's left to see

Hours sailing by in the cloak of midnight's shadow
The moon sinks downward outside my window
Dawn will break soon
Life will return to the world again
And this darkness and silence
Will remain within
I do not have the luxury of sleep
I do not get any breaks from my
Conscious
Thinking,
Noisy brain
I do not know how I am still functioning
Let alone as sane as I still seem to be
But of course I could always be kidding myself
Sanity has never really been a part of me
I am trapped in a state of limbo
Floating
Drifting
Fading
The sun will assault my world soon
The people will rise and make commotion soon
And with the final goodbye of the moon
Here I will lie, black holes for eyes
Wondering what I can do to silence
My
*******
Head
Other than the obvious, because
I'm not ready
Right now,
To be dead.

Vast and burning landscapes
Escape no wandering eye
And those who stand on these wasted lands
Cannot honestly deny
That no man
Will with dignity die

In life he can be righteous
He can be pure in heart and even mind
But once the bells toll for him
He leaves it all behind

To gaze upon his battered corpse
Is to stare into the sun
For one must turn his eyes away
Before much looking's done

In pools of blood and bile
A nameless soldier is all we see
Another man who lived his life in vain
Just to die with dignity

But these fields of bodies
Tell no lies
The echoes of the battle cries
Are all that's left when the day is done
Only those who survived
Are around to accept the prize
When the war is finally won

And I know that when my time comes
When I put my bullet in the gun
My death will be a messy one
There's nothing beautiful to see
In the end, for you and me
We cannot die with dignity

Be still, my heavy heart
Stop tossing in this tempest
You’re made of stone, I know
You’ve never let me down
You’ve weathered this storm
For a couple of decades now

And poor heart, I know you’re weary
I know you need to rest
So be still, my heavy heart
Stop tossing in this tempest

There is a light at the end
But the tunnel I walk is long
And lonely without a friend
And silent without a song
But yet I must press on

Be still, weary heart
I know your torment and ache
I know you’re trying hard
Not to fail me, not to break
But you must keep moving forward
Keep the locomotion in this train
Oh heavy, weary heart of mine
We will escape the pain

Take these memories and set them afire
Burn them to the ground
I choose not to keep them around
I am not the one I used to be
Time will mold another me
And I won't like her either
I am sure

Life has a cruel way of making you adapt
Roll on with the changes
But always you're trapped
Bound relentlessly by destiny

We live and die a thousand times
But it's a vicious cycle we cannot escape
We're always placed back between our lines
Scrape clean our souls and leave it behind

Forever forced onward
Like sheep in a herd
With the dogs always barking at our heels
And so this is how it feels then
To live a nightmare again and again

Please take these memories from me
And turn them all to ash
Life sails by in a blinding flash
And we always take for granted
All the seeds we've planted
That will wither and die
Wither and die

It's all over in the blink of an eye.

Little girl, little girl
Remember the games that we played?
How many kings and queens we saved?
How many dragons that we slayed?

You would charge through the forest
Laugh and shout and run
"Lets **** the mighty, evil dragon!"
....This war, it shall be won...

You would race through fields and forests
Even in the rain
You might fall and scrape your knees sometimes
But you'd get right up again

Not so graceful, twirls and turns
As the spear found a dragons eye
Jumping, skipping, slipping, fall
You might even shed a little blood
But you wouldn't cry at all

So little girl, little girl
Why are you crying now?
We don't have time for this you know
It's time for fighting now

Pick up your shield, pick up your spear!
The ******* dragon, he draws near
Swallow your pride and hide your fear
It's time for fighting now.

Going on vacation in my spaceship to the moon
I'll call you from the station, but don't expect me soon
I'll probably stay the weekend, might even stay a week
When I'm all through playing "let's pretend" in the Land of Make Believe
I'll probably orbit Jupiter and build a sand castle on Mars
Then I think I'll take a cruise through Orion's Belt of stars
I'll go find the Tomb of Major Tom
I'll figure out how it all went wrong
I can't lie I might be gone long
Long gone
And when I've got these dealings done
I'll set a course straight for the sun
Can you hear me, Major Tom?
Planet Earth is blue and it's all because of you.