I'm tired of ******* myself, I crave of someone eles
to force my legs open
to puncture my insides with their hands turned into fingers
I want to *** until I loose count
I want to shake of pleasure  until I start to twitch
I want to have my mouth open with no words coming out from state of shock
I want to feel so good my eyes fill with tears
I want to hear my juices as they fall
I crave of someone else

Some days i feel everything
all at once
then others
I'm petrified to bare the pain that then I feel nothing at all.
So what's worse
drowning beneath the waves
or dying from the thirst

I don't open up easily
but I do get attached easily
I care too much too fast
there for I come off as clingy

I want to have *** in my friends bathroom
I want him thrusting into me as he holds my hips
I want us standing so I can see myself in the mirror giving that **** look I give
I want to cover my mouth so that my friends won't hear my moans so I can get even more turned on
I want him to arch my back the way he needs it to be so i can fulfill his needs
I want him to have his way with me
I want him to look at me dead in my eye through the mirror while I take in all of him
I want to shake of exhaustion and squirm of pleasure
I want *** in my friends bathroom

I'll text him a long message coming from my heart
midway of it I realise he wouldn't understand
he probably wouldn't even care
then i have to just delete the whole thing
and just respond with an okay