A crisp new sheet of paper
My favorite color pen

A bright white screen
A cursor waiting on me

Starting out with Dear
My cursive scrawl on the page

Dude!
Some clinical font

Proper use of grammar
The love and care showing on the page

Unintelligible words
Carelessly tossing the conversation to the side

Elegant phrases
Sealing these words with a sigh and a kiss

Send
Now what was I doing?

A stamp and an address

A tangle of binary code

The rush of exhilaration upon receiving

The annoyance of another buzz

The excitement of knowing that somebody cares

The annoyance that the mystery is gone

Which do you choose?

It is feeling alone in a room full of people
It is feeling like you have nobody to turn to for support
It is the constant feeling that something is missing
It is the lack of emotion
It is the hard exterior
It is the need to be accepted
It is the feeling of being your own best friend
It is the feeling of being your own worst enemy
It is the feeling of dread to go to sleep, for fear of missing out on nothing in particular
It is the pain of not knowing
It is the pain of knowing
It is the animosity
It is the acceptance
It is the feeling of betrayal
It is the fear
It is the anxiety
It is the fact that at some point, you will lose everybody that you love
It is the feeling that you might as well not bother loving at all
It is sad
It is me

Misery loves company.

If you can't make me happy, I will make you miserable.

Misery loves company.

I would save you.
I would love you enough to make all of the pain that everybody else has caused you to go away.
I would love you enough, more than enough.
I would be happy.
We would be happy.

I would love you with a strong and fierce passion.
I would make you feel worth the breath that you breathe.
I would make you feel the worth of every beat of your heart.

I would take you into my heart and show you that there is room for you.
There will always be room for you.

I would show you your value, your worth.
I would show you who you could really be, who you are meant to be.
I would show you that they are all wrong about you, I see who you really are.
I would be by your side, I would defend you.

You are perfect.
You are the most beautiful soul and my perfect fit.
You are the swell in my chest and the rush in my brain.
You are the warm arms and beating heart.
You are the comfort and the joy.
You are the warmth of the sand and the cool of the ocean.  
You are perfect.

You are misunderstood.
You deserve the very best.
You deserve to be loved the way that I love you.

If love could just make time turn back.
If love could just make this perfect.
If I could be another person to love you, somebody not quite so close.
If we could steal each other and never look back.
If love were enough
I would love you enough, more than enough.
You are perfect.

I hear the door crack open
My soul rushes through the back of my skull
an egg yolk through the door of an airplane at cruising altitude

My body turns to jello
The air turns to tar

I can't move

I am hovering over my own body watching myself scream
"STOP"

It is as if Hermes himself grabs my body
and gives me the strength and speed of 10,000 men

I run
I run
I run

I catch you 5 steps from the end of your life

I wrap my arms around my personal Achilles
and not for the first time
and not for the last
I find safety in numbers

I am from the ocean
I am from the sea

I am from the mountains
I am from the trees

I am from a hateful act
I am from your spite

I am from the jagged edge
I am from your darkest night

I am from the starry sky
I am from the moon

I am from the vicious anger
I am from your nightmare

I am from a beautiful place
I am from your sorrow

How nice it is to feel the zen
When you fall in love with your family again