I'm so incredibly in love with you.
Being drunk has only made me realize that more.
I thought maybe that tonight I could forget about the troubles and ripping of my heart in half that is to come.
But right now you are so vividly present in my mind and I miss you more than I have in these three weeks.
I miss being drunk with you and making love like we would never get the chance again.
Looking into your eyes and wanting you, feeling the infinity behind my eyes that made you feel so incredibly heavenly.
The breath that paused on my neck and gave me everything I ever wanted while you showed me depth of your desires.
I miss laying with you and holding onto every second we could ever possibly have.
Please don't go.
I want you so bad and I this cannot possibly be the last time I will see the love of my life again.
I fantasize about your touch and how bittersweet it will be to know it again.
You consume my thoughts especially right now and all I want is the love that you so beautifully have shown me.
I think you as my soulmate and I don't want to live a life without you in only two more weeks.
God my heart is consumed by fear and regret.
Sweetheart I know you had to do what was best for you.
But know that I won't stop loving you for a while to come.
Those loving, rainbow eyes will haunt me for so long.

I love you B and that's all I want you to hold on to right now.
That I think about how proud I am of you for chasing your dreams.
That you inspire me to be who I am and who I deserve to be in life.
That you've never told me a single lie to protect my heart.
That you're the most honest and intelligent man I've ever known.
I love you B.

That feeling when you wake up after letting the rivers flood your sheets the night before and the next morning the floodgates still haven't closed after you thought every drop was run dry.

Sometimes happiness is staring for minutes upon hours at the things you've created.
Like the Mad Hatter.
Trying to figure out the next brush stroke that will change everything.